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Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

0 posted 2003-10-02 12:27 PM

Time grows short
I wonder of my feelings
Am I pulling away?
trying to make it hurt less
when you leave

Or am I truly changing
how I once felt

Maybe to admit my feelings have changed
would be an emotional death
for wouldn't it prove
that it wasn't real
thereby proving
that I am incapable
of anything lasting
anything complete

I wonder what will become of me
I grow confused

I feel an emptiness
yet a need to escape
from something I am not sure of
to something I can't see

What will become of me?

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

1 posted 2003-10-02 12:41 PM

You left me hanging my head in my hands~
(My initial reaction)
You're all heart Susan and so is your poetry~

Thank you for saying what I wish to write.

Oh, you!

[This message has been edited by BluesSerenade (10-02-2003 12:43 AM).]

Ratleader

Member Rara Avis

since 2003-01-23

Posts 7026
Visiting Earth on a Guest Pass

2 posted 2003-10-02 12:44 PM

One thing I have learned, too well and too recently.... you can't make it hurt less by trying to prepare yourself, but you can make it hurt more, and sometimes the pain of trying to impose a change on yourself is not needed at all.

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Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

3 posted 2003-10-02 12:50 PM

sometimes facing the self is just as bad..need sleep..

HopeS
Member Elite

since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

4 posted 2003-10-02 01:11 AM

Ohhhh yes Sue , you are real , this poem made the reader feel !!!!
Hope

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

5 posted 2003-10-02 02:09 AM

(big hugggsssssss) What will become of you is despite this adversity and the tears that may result, you will soar, grow stronger and richer in love and majestically run forward in new found joy! (sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, I send many angel hugs your way to guide you through this time, yay, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Susan, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sun set and I perceive

***Live***

vlraynes
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-25

Posts 8229
Somewhere... out there...

6 posted 2003-10-02 02:12 AM

"Maybe to admit my feelings have changed
would be an emotional death
for wouldn't it prove
that it wasn't real
thereby proving
that I am incapable
of anything lasting
anything complete"

Oh my...yes...I know this feeling, Susan,
and you've written it beautifully.

Hugs to you, my friend..
When the power of love overcomes the
love of power the world will know peace.
-Jimi Hendrix

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

7 posted 2003-10-02 02:47 AM

Thank you all!!

Noah~that picture made me laugh..thank you.

Susan

n2dmystic
Member

since 2003-09-27

Posts 253
beyond the doors of perception

8 posted 2003-10-02 04:22 AM

in relationships, it seems that so often we are willing to accept the pain of a known quantity to the unknown pain of loss, grieving, healing, etc. this affirms the doubts inherent in breaking free of ... very nice

Peace, Joe
in the big MT
seeking the serendipitous magical mysteries of life's ubiquitous twisteries

gemjop
Member Elite

since 2002-11-18

Posts 2587
Pencilveinia, USA

9 posted 2003-10-02 05:08 AM

Oh me too. You know I've been trying to work out if i've been lying to myself lately.

you may have just inspired a write. so thankyou.

much love n hugs.

~I wanna live, I wanna give, I've been a miner for a heart of gold~ Neil Young

Paul Wilson

Member Elite

since 2002-07-07

Posts 4711
United States

10 posted 2003-10-02 06:49 AM

Susan...Great write. That next step is a hard one, but one you must make in order to break free from the past, even though the past is only one step behind you. Take Care...Paul

"To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you"

Edder
Senior Member

since 2003-04-02

Posts 671

11 posted 2003-10-02 08:57 AM

"What will become of me?"

You'll be just fine, though it may not seem like it right now. As cliche as it sounds, time does indeed heal. I'm living proof.

angelblueyes
Member Elite

since 2003-07-19

Posts 2148
Oklahoma

12 posted 2003-10-03 01:40 AM

Face this fear head on and instead of running you'll be able to embrace yourself.You are a sweet spirit that deserves the world.

Crystal

Ceinwyn
Member Elite

since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

13 posted 2003-10-03 01:50 AM

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

Kaoru

Member Elite

since 2003-06-07

Posts 3892
where the wild flowers grow

14 posted 2003-10-03 02:18 AM

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