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JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

0 posted 2003-09-30 07:57 PM

Still Loving Phil

I fell in love with a woman
that still loved another.
He joined the Army and shipped out
to Germany to get away because he
didn't want to be her lover.

Or did he?

I suppose I'll never know.
Because I wanted her, I
didn't want her to go.
She thought he would get
settled in and then he would
send back to California for her.
But she wasn't sure.
Her mom told her to let go.
She told her daughter to write
one of those dear John's saying
"Phil I'm through with
you, I hope you know.
Phil you better let go."

I should have been
the one to let go!!!

I knew she missed him more
than she knew how to reveal.
I knew it from the first time
she told me that she still
loved Phil.

JamesLee
September29
2003

[This message has been edited by JamesMichael (09-30-2003 08:07 PM).]

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

1 posted 2003-09-30 08:09 PM

Reason #1 why I am still single...my own "Phil"..

Nice piece.

Susan

SharaRose
Member Elite

since 2003-07-19

Posts 2501
Somewhere out there~

2 posted 2003-09-30 08:11 PM

So sad. :'( Hope the heart heals very speedy.
Love,
SharaRose ~

Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer!

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

3 posted 2003-09-30 08:13 PM

Thanks for responding Susan...wish I could of had the strength to let her go...it would have saved me lots of heartache...but there was no way I could...James

gemjop
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since 2002-11-18

Posts 2587
Pencilveinia, USA

4 posted 2003-10-01 07:24 AM

hey I have my own phil too!

I'm so sorry you went through this, you deserve only the best m friend.

Another fine reminder to self, to LET GO! so thankyou.

QjQ
Member Elite

since 2003-04-18

Posts 3756
U.S.A.

5 posted 2003-10-01 07:33 AM

like the old poker player once said,, "You got to no when to hold them and no when to fold them"

LeeJ
Member Patricius

since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

6 posted 2003-10-01 08:02 AM

funny how we always seem to want what we cannot have?

This was a awesome poem, and very good lesson to read.  We always think the grass is greener on the other side, huh, until we get there.

Why is it men's thirst cannot be quenched?
Always restless, looking for something better, after we've known the best we'll ever find?  we seem to tell ourselves, blindly, that what we had was not right?  And we believe it?

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

7 posted 2003-10-01 09:03 AM

aww James, the chase of the chase of the chase
never ending . . .
don't stop though
*smile*
xxoo

ethome
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since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

8 posted 2003-10-01 09:11 AM

James
Nice realistic write.

This line can be so true...
"I knew she missed him more
than she knew how to reveal"
Excellent line my friend.

Eric

The best teachers have the biggest ears

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

9 posted 2003-10-01 07:42 PM

Thank you SharaRose, gemjop, QJQ, Lee J, littlewing and ethome for the nice responses...
These are left over feelings from many years ago...she became my wife, but I don't think she ever got over Phil and apparantly I still believe that I was her second choice...James

A Romantic Heart
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since 1999-09-03

Posts 5496
Forever In Your Heart

10 posted 2003-10-02 10:48 PM

Enjoyed! You should never be second choice!
~ARH

True poets don't write with the ink of quill or pen, but with the ink of their heart~

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

11 posted 2003-10-02 10:51 PM

(big hugggssssss) Oh James, my heart goes out to you, sweet friend, I know how hard it can be to deal with this kind of relationship and you deserve so much to be first on someone's list as you have the heart of a true romantic! (sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet James, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sun set and I perceive

***Live***

Saunni
Senior Member

since 2000-07-11

Posts 1777
West Virginia

12 posted 2003-10-02 11:24 PM

James, what a difficult place to be in...I'm sorry. You wrote about it so honestly. A sad write but a well written one.

Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain.

angelblueyes
Member Elite

since 2003-07-19

Posts 2148
Oklahoma

13 posted 2003-10-03 12:44 PM

This isn't an easy place to be.It haunts you and taunts you messing with your heart and mind.May you soon find the comfort that you so deserve.

Crystal

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

14 posted 2003-10-03 03:39 AM

Thank you Romantic heart, Noah, Saunni and velvet for the nice responses...yes, its not wise to become involved in a relationship where you are second choice...the other person resents you because they settled for second best..James

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