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Kielo
Senior Member

since 2002-02-11

Posts 1109

0 posted 2003-09-22 04:06 PM

I can't believe
it's been a month.
I'm not in denial
anymore
but I don't miss you
any less.

I dreamed about you
again last night.
I thought you were gone
from my dreams,
but not last night,
the night before the
anniversary of our separation.
(I know, I'm over-dramatic-
we weren't dating.
No, we were best friends,
we were sisters,
and that means
so much more to me.)
I dreamed that you
came back to me,
that you forgave me.
I felt no obligation to you
to keep you safe and
send you away.
To be honest,
I'm not sure I could,
even while awake.
I know that if you return
I should.
Should and could are
very different.
If you come back,
I will be elated.
Far too elated to
look to your well-being,
and that scares me.
I tell myself I can do well-
for you, for me and for God-
but I'm not perfect yet,
and I don't think I'll make it
without a few failures.

So this September 22, 2003,
exactly a month since you left,
I sit, idly, and write
of the greatest sister
I ever had, and
the one person who
meant more to me than
life itself.

Skyfire

Member Elite

since 2000-12-27

Posts 3381
Riding

1 posted 2003-09-22 05:32 PM

*bugs*

Life isn't really all that bad... just don't take it too seriously
"Poets have been mysteriously silent on the subject of cheese. "
--G. K.Chesterto

QjQ
Member Elite

since 2003-04-18

Posts 3756
U.S.A.

2 posted 2003-09-22 05:37 PM

very nice thoughts,,,

Ceinwyn
Member Elite

since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

3 posted 2003-09-22 08:58 PM

uh huh yeah...feels like someone has lead foot today..or for like ever..dreams are funny creatures aren't they...hmm..I know the feeling behind these words..even tears...been tasting them for quite some time..*hugs*

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

mytuesdaywishes
Member

since 2003-09-05

Posts 254
a voice from the musicbox

4 posted 2003-09-22 09:01 PM

I KNOW!!!!! my best friend and i had september too...my best friend and i had an anniversary too. my best friend and i couldnt handle real life. so i still dream about the times we had and now i know im not alone. i feel every word in this poem. thankyou so much!!!

and even when everything was wrong, and we were mad at the world, it was still beautiful.

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

5 posted 2003-09-22 09:49 PM

(big hugggsssssss) God Bless You, sweet friend, I know how hard it can be to let go of a brother or sister and long so much to see them again, but know always your sister will always love you and will never forget you and feels the same way right now! (sigh) This is lovely, sweet friend, I send angel comfort hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Kielo, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sun set and I perceive

***Live***

Amara
Member

since 2003-02-23

Posts 158
East of the moon, west of the sun.

6 posted 2004-09-19 09:06 PM

You know who I am. Obviously. Look at the screen name. I only have one bloody name. T.T

*huggle you forever*

Damn your hair is short, girl. You scared the daylights out of me.

Gods, what a cryptic message, I do know that there's something I meant to say. I think I realized it... yesterday. Or was it the day before?

I realized that I was a complete and utter... pick a word. I heard, through friends of friends, that you were really, really angry at me. I'm sure you've called me plenty of words. I'm sure I deserved each and every one of them.

Girl... I realized, yesterday or the day before, that I really, truly hoped that you were happy. Which surprised me. But I want you to know that. I really, truly want you to be happy. And I'm going to shut the hell up now.

But I'll look for a reply here, if you'll give me one. Here. Don't call me. (I don't think you would, but just in case.)

Please forgive me for being self-centered and stupid. I have been all along, and I'm sure I seem so right now. But... I had the flu yesterday, and being sick always changes me drastically. Thankfully I don't get sick that often. I wish I made sense, but I'm still a little muddled.

*huggle you forever*

-- Me

PS. It was strange fate that lead me to this poem... but I never believe in mere fate when I'm sick. Like I said, being sick always changes me.

Kielo
Senior Member

since 2002-02-11

Posts 1109

7 posted 2004-10-22 11:57 PM

Hey you... I was thinking of emailing you. It's sort of odd that I stumbled across this reply, actually. Fate led me to it... Honestly, that's the only thing I can come up with. I hope you're still looking here for me to see this.

Would it be unfair of me to say that I'm confused and I'd like to know what's going on? I mean, if you don't know, then we can sort it out, I guess, whatever that means... but if you do, let me know. *smile*

I miss you. I don't know if I can get away with that... but its true.

God... I hope you find this.

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