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icebox
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since 2003-05-03

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in the shadows

0 posted 2003-09-13 11:37 PM

I suppose
I should tell you,
that I know you lied,
to me,
told hasty sloppy lies
as truths
I'm sure you thought I'd rather hear
than see who you really are.
I did know better
than to believe you;
I have seen the way you play
with all the others in your life.
Is that ego or what?
To think
that you could lie to everybody else,
but not to me.
Maybe you were right
in concept,
the basic principle
of keeping those around you happy
is useful in a very realistic way;
I'll get out some of the pain
by painting it inside this poem,
but I know I will never say to you
that I know all the lies,
just as I know
I'm a better actor than you'll ever be.
It wouldn't do me any good to tell you.
Hell, I am here
alive and free
just because
I can turn wildest bits of make believe
into someone's safe reality.
I just thought
I was done with all of that
when I met you.
I must be getting careless in my dotage
to believe
that I would ever be completely free
of needing to maintain
the living theater of the heart.
It's such a useful workshop,
like a castle full of parts.
I wonder if I can live
inside the role you have defined for us.
You don't even seem to know
how close the boundaries are,
the lights too free to move about
the stage too small,
that one day without doubt
you will turn and fall right off the edge;
you ask me for magic
like it is just another toy
to spin the world around you
to your liking,
without a care
that in creating
all your petty momentary joys
so many other worlds will be destroyed.

©2003 by icebox

Ratleader

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1 posted 2003-09-13 11:45 PM

I have known this angst, and yes, written it here. It does help a bit, though it also hurts in unexpected ways.

I can tell you though, that while it may be true, the feeling describing objective truth, it may also be something else altogether. Trouble is, you never can be entirely sure whether you're looking through a window, or into a carnival mirror......

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passing shadows
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displaced

2 posted 2003-09-13 11:55 PM

I know someone just like this...

Kahlil
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since 2003-04-12

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3 posted 2003-09-14 12:36 PM

Icebox, that's tellin' it, like nothing else can. I think Ratleader's comments are interesting, too. I know the kind of person you are writing about. I know what I don't wish to be...and hope I never would. Back to your writing...I love the way you do this.
~K~

1slick_lady
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standing on a shadow's lace

4 posted 2003-09-14 12:39 PM

"you ask me for magic"

Honeybunch
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since 2001-12-29

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5 posted 2003-09-14 01:33 AM

Dear Icebox, How forcibly you bring home to the reader so many aspects of life and the people we share, and have shared, our lives with. Thank you!

serenity blaze
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6 posted 2003-09-14 02:22 AM

You write skyclad.

serenity blaze
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7 posted 2003-09-14 02:23 AM

er...almost.

Damn yer lovely.

littlewing
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since 2003-03-02

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8 posted 2003-09-14 08:47 AM

Ok icey?
this is so close to home
I nearly cried
Beautiful writing,
good God, you astound me
xxoo

Local Rebel
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since 1999-12-21

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Southern Abstentia

9 posted 2003-09-14 01:13 PM

"that one day without doubt
you will turn and fall right off the edge"

and we won't know whether to mourn or applaud eh?

rubbed this one up right there bard
you at your best

vandana

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USA

10 posted 2003-09-14 01:50 PM

enjoyed

JamesMichael
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Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

11 posted 2003-09-16 05:23 AM

Sometimes I live in lies because I can't find what I want in the truth...James

vlraynes
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Somewhere... out there...

12 posted 2003-09-16 05:27 AM

Oh...yes...so well said, icey one.
This touches, my friend.
Hugs,
~Vicky
When the power of love overcomes the
love of power the world will know peace.
-Jimi Hendrix

Martie

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13 posted 2003-09-16 11:19 AM

icebox

I just realized I didn't reply to this emotive write when I first read it.

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