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angelblueyes
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0 posted 2003-09-09 04:17 PM


My heart was broken as a child
My innocence taken by a man all the while
A friend of my mom's who was suppost to be nice
Not the way I saw it as he threatened me with a knife
I never spoke of this to anyone
Until I was almost twentyone
For he threatened to kill my brother and mother
And without them I would have no other
So I lived in my own little world
What else could I do, I was just a little girl
I went through the motions over the years
But inside I felt like dying, I was full of fear
Then when I was older and thought that I could be happy
We moved in with my dad and thought things would be sappy
But it didin't take him very long
To show me that I was very wrong
For he took the rest of my childhood away
By touching and feeling in all sorts of ways
I feel like my childhood was never there
All I can remember is why no one cared
How could my mom not take the time to see
That what her friends and my father were doing to me
I'm trying to get better each and every day
Sometimes it just comes out flowing, sometimes there's nothing to say
One day, I willl be completly better inside
And then what's left of my heart I will no longer hide
And then maybe I can show the love that my family deserves
Instead of keeping it up against the curb
         For one day I will be alive
         Beacuse if nothing else
         I know I will survive

Crystal

© Copyright 2003 Crystal - All Rights Reserved
Mistletoe Angel
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1 posted 2003-09-09 04:29 PM




(big angel healing hugs) Oh Crystal, I am so sorry to hear you've been through too much, dearest friend, obviously your mother's friend is just a big coward and if he has any soul at all he is ashamed of all the harm he put on you, your mother and brother, just as your father is hopefully learning from his fatal mistake of abusing his own daughter and spending time trying to become a better person! (sad sigh) My heart goes out to you, but I know deep down you are extremely special, and you will not only survive, you will blossom with the love and compassion your heart holds dear that too many parents and people only dream of having, and then all may be forgiven, God Bless You, know you can always count on me and others hear when you need a friend to talk to, that's what friends are for, and also you are always welcome to read my journal on pipTalk Lounge, where I talk of my own experiences from my childhood that can comfort you, God Bless You, here's huge angel friendship hugs just for you, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Crystal, thank you for sharing!



May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sun set and I perceive

***Live***

Earth Angel
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2 posted 2003-09-09 04:30 PM


Dear Crystal, you will survive--and are! In fact, I believe that you will not only survive, but you will thrive! As you write about those horrible events in your life, you may experience a healing crisis. As you face those events, your whole being relives them. But as you deal with them and release them, you will be much stronger--and freer and lighter and happier...

I have so much compassion for what you have experienced, Dear One.

Loving, healing Light,
Linda

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3 posted 2003-09-09 04:41 PM


too many... but one is too many.. have experienced many of the same things. Never something we want to think about or admit happens everyday, but it does...

hugs... and a hope for the best to come your way.

SharaRose
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4 posted 2003-09-09 05:40 PM


Crystal words are something I wish I could find. Not always are there words to say, but I know just knowing someone is there, and cares is such a life-giving comfort. Thanks for sharing.

Love,&
SharaRose @-->--

Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer!

Bill Charles
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5 posted 2003-09-09 05:46 PM


angelblueyes - a most telling write. Hang in there for in time it will become better. Peace walk with you my friend...

BC

QjQ
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6 posted 2003-09-09 06:59 PM


omg i cannot express the feelings of pain that i feel for you,
But life must go on and we have to be strong and carry our wounds of past,

you expressed your feelings very well,,

               

Enchantress
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7 posted 2003-09-09 07:05 PM


...

      ~ Summer can't be over...
   I still have sand in my shoes ~

JilGirl
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8 posted 2003-09-09 07:56 PM


Sweet Crystal;

Your sharing is deeply heartfelt. It also plays a tremendous part in your healing from such long term trauma.

Please be assured that none of the past offenses against you were deserved . . . NOR were they your fault!

You WILL rally from this and rise above it all. You're a better person in spite of the past, but also BECAUSE of it.

Whenever we suffer such pain, it generates a sense of deeper compassion and empathy toward other's sad and painful experiences. We then become experiencially equipped to offer the same comfort and encouragement which we have received, to others who reach out as we have done.

Though sad, traumatic experiences differ -- our feelings do not.

You're a very strong lady and your determination to be freed and healed is highly commendable.

I appreciate you! Please accept my love, prayers and blessings!

Shirl

JamesMichael
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9 posted 2003-09-09 08:38 PM


Some sad words and then beautiful words of determination to overcome the sad things that have happened in your life...be strong...may the sadness give way to determination and healing...James
angelblueyes
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10 posted 2003-09-10 07:40 AM


Thank you all so very much.This is a great family that I've found at Passion's.You all are so supportive and honest that it amazes me sometimes.I write of the past sometimes because I'm in a healing process and this is one of my major tools.I also post it so that if by chance there is one person out there that has been through this or is going through this and having problems.They might see this and it might help.If it helps one person it's served its purpose and it's helped me along the way.Thanks again everyone.
Crystal

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