Just a verse from a song i am working on...

My intentions are to break free of these chains
Disgraced to my family so i cannot speak their names
Yet even though we one and the same
Torn by lyrics which combust as i accept the blame
Pain inscribed in my soul makes reality drift
To a place not underhanded to fix this rift
Imagine dying for a purpose i did not choose
Somewhere inside adolescence my spirt came to abuse
The soul feeds my eyes with what i hope to see
Feeling close to the Devil, screaming only God can judge me
Will i make it to the afterlife or be reincarnated
Hopefully i can then die for something i previously demonstrated
Incarcerated in my own mind an enemy of myself
Living life without focuss whilst evading wealth
Scriptures denying the path to a higher trust
Rather die than witness my whole nation combust
I guess you think you know who i am 'cause i live like this
Yet not taking the time to question whether ignorance is bliss
As each morning arrives with the hope of just being me
Im still living blind and wondering when will i get free?