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Tell Me One More Time How Much You Love Me
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Tell Me One More Time How Much You Love Me |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows 
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Time shifts, like frozen bits of glittered sand lifted drifting from my hands sifting through awareness, suddenly like the midnight trill, the hungry question of the summer whippoorwill. Yes, I tried to change. Am I deranged, what was I thinking of? No more floats, no sinking boats, I may set up a final stand; I feel more lines of power than I have felt in years; not through abstract thoughts, no image wrought defenses are deluding me. After all, how many of us could there be alive at work on this wet little ball of grit; tell me Precious, how many? Do you care? fifty-one score, plus four, often less never more. I remember numbers, I forget how bad it gets I know, I had placed too many bets on too many dreams left too far away; yet, I tell you I was stunned to learn you wouldn't step across the street, to say hello, even though you flew 9,000 miles being sure you would arrive when there was no way I could know you'd even left the fortress of your life at home; now you're gone again, safe and tucked away behind the stones, those monstrous walls that keep you feeling free. So, I am left again to sift through more unlived memories of you, that, and my regrets curtailing me, like the empty spires of my desires standing brokenly; lined with frills my memory fills the gaps that frightened me. I have never been afraid to live out in the open; the same sunlight that sets your skin on fire can send me up in flames as well; you run hiding, burrowed down, tucked away, afraid to shake the light of day and yet we are the same. We are creatures of the night, you and I. In the end there is no where to run; you succeed in lying only to yourself and forget perhaps, we died before the play ever had begun and in the end, the really really end, there really really is no place to hide, only in your mind. Someday perhaps I will use up the world's supply of shadows, and on that day I die with no one left to cry. Where will you be that day still screaming out that you're alive? You see, I would cross the street to see you, I would walk through fire just to be with you, I would stand out in the open waiting for dawn to crack the sky, knowing in its birth I die, if in that brief moment between this living death and the peace of the abyss I could look you in the eye, hold your hand touch your cheek just one more time. Not for the sake of need I am freed of that emotion's pale reflection of the truth. There is life only in love without need. Yes, I will live as best I can, using all the parlor tricks any good charlatan can muster to survive, but I will not trade the space to breathe by hiding behind shiny hired thugs and fancy iron doors. I have run loose too long too far sometimes blindly staggering, but I found no monsters hunting me. Oh, I've got answers yet to find, but there is still eternity for me to walk the wild pathways of self imposed serenity through our wasted gardens of dreams and broken stalks of fragrant greenery; there is no joke here only smoke dear; even that is free. See, I am not so tired now. Broken shafts of light, angry bitter laughs, the right ideas the righteous' fears, that meant so much to me, all gone, just jolly uglies wandering away from me, as easily as you turned away running from your tears, and if they're back with new attacks, upon the shredded ramparts, my castle's keep of soul and sanity, demanding that I be what I refuse to be, so what? Right now I'm free. ©2003 by icebox [This message has been edited by icebox (07-17-2003 09:52 PM).] |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
amazing |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
"I would cross the street to see you, I would walk through fire just to be with you, I would stand out in the open waiting for dawn to crack the sky, knowing in its birth I die, if in that brief moment between this living death and the peace of the abyss I could look you in the eye, hold your hand touch your cheek just one more time. Not for the sake of need I am freed of that emotion's pale reflection of the truth There is life only in love without need." my God !!! to be loved like that...i would put my heart on sleeve...hang it on the eve...that was beautiful just beautiful...those are the words that make love real not just something you say...h damn you can make me cry !!! |
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Saunni Senior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 1777West Virginia |
I'm without words here!!! I can only say if only... wonderful, wonderful write.  Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain. L.S |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
icebox... you really needed to say this...could sense a desperate quality to it, and the free of the last words, was like a good sigh. Very emotive writing and although I don't understand all of it, I did feel. |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Yes, Iceman, this is a brilliant write... just amazing. thank you for sharing this emotional write with us.  Hugs  Ethel |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
This is downright intimate, ice. You pound the truth down with frustration. I'll keep this one--I kinda liked swirling it around in my glass, looking for visions. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Enjoyed...James |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Bravo!  |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Yes, a really woderful write. Thank you, Icebox, for there's much to think on even though it be your emotion and thoughts so well expressed. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Amazing...just amazing. A keeper for my library. ~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~If you haven't heard the sunset, |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
Aenimal ~ Thank you kind Sir! 1slick_lady ~ The old cliche is that it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all; I am not convinced that is true. Sorry about the tears; you have enough already and do not need me bringing more to you. *smile* Saunni ~ Thank you for taking the time to read and comment, and for your smile! Martie ~ Yes Ma'am, you are correct. Thank you for reading this. garysgirl ~ Thank you for taking the time to read and to comment. serenity blaze ~ Thank you for reading my poem. Is the pounding what my headache is from? *smile* JamesMichael ~ I am glad you enjoyed it. Thank you for taking the time to tell me. timothysangel1973 ~ *smile* Thank you. Honeybunch ~ For your time, and your thoughts, thank you my friend. Enchantress ~ I am glad you like this. Thank you for reading and for your comment. |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
I had to go back to read this because i never posted to it. It is beyond defining. Wonderful writing, sad as it. Nothing I have read cause emotions to flow so fully. thank you for sharing you. martyjo |
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