sweet surrender (rp from back in the day)

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Open Poetry #27

sweet surrender (rp from back in the day)

Ceinwyn
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since 2000-07-09

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0 posted 2003-06-23 02:20 PM

I'm scared and alone
Tired of being strong
I long to let go
Just for tonight
I want some time
To let it all finally sink in deep
To brand my fragile yet strong mind
I want to surrender my stubborn soul
And show raw emotion
Without fearing to lose control
God, why is my heart afraid to sing to him
When he's made it perfectly clear
That he will never use what I say
Against me nor ever leave me in this cold cruel world
How much longer
Do I need to keep up this brick wall
Surrounding my soul
Blocking all possible emotions
That should be taking their toll
Yet instead I no longer allow myself to cry
But I'm afraid I'm going crazy
With these nerves of steel
I gave up my heart under my own free will
To another human being
Someone whose soul is rare and true
But I'm lost, I no longer know what to do
I get deeper and deeper letting time take its toll
Is this truly love?
These emotions, these needs
Wanting to break down just for once
To want to surrender to them
Showing them that sometimes it's hard being strong
And that you're just like them
A human being..
Reaching out
Searching, asking and longing for real love…

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

[This message has been edited by Ceinwyn (06-23-2003 02:24 PM).]

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