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Breaking Through (1,000th Starting Post)
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Breaking Through (1,000th Starting Post) |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(Yay! This 1,000th starting post of mine (a re-post) is dedicated to all you wonderful friends of mine! (does happy dance) Just wanted all of you to know of how my story has been written and how I find my way here, yay!) ************(Hanky-Alert)************ Breaking Through By: Noah Eaton 7/11/02 My story has not always been that happy So much I just want to forget that's so mopey So come back with me and you will be told The history of this Mistletoe Angel I have grown up in a rough suburb of Denver Where I have no friends and I can never befriend the neighbors I never wanted to take the school bus, I just walked No matter what the weather, I alone followed the sidewalks I went to this elementary school just 3/4 of a mile away I possessed an optimistic spirit when I attended my very first day But the result was so disasterous I just wanted to cry all day from all the unfair harassment  Because boys my own age would pick on me for being too "girl"ish Trying to be peaceful and proper, at the time thry thought it was ridiculous I was abused, chased around the playground, trying to hide I never wished to bring harm to anyone, I never wanted to fight I tried asking my teachers for help they could provide But they ignored my serious heartfelt cries I suppose they just didn't understand I possess a learning difference That I'm unique from many others, in a ways of learning preference It turned out I have a special condition called Aspergers Syndrome A high form of autism which makes me super-sensitive but socially numb I cried for months thinking something was wrong with me and I had a bad disease I continuously thought of dying because I felt no one would ever appreciate me  So after a while, I begged my mom to homeschool me She was the only one who made me feel comfortable and was there to help me While I was socially locked out from the rest of the world outside my window At least I found a refuge to recuperate my sorrows I grew up, listening to matchbox twenty, Counting Crows, and Hootie & The Blowfish Their melancholy expressions of heartache influenced me to keep a journal and write daily passages At first all I wrote seemed meaningless and jibberish Until something would bring out the heart in me, the magic and music After two years my mom said "Hey, how'd you like to attend a private school?" She invited me on a tour to the Denver Academy downtown, I thought it was peaceful I still was nervous, but knew I had to start up again somewhere As I still wept every while concerned of the whereabouts of this unclaimed life out there It happened that first day I was there, I met a man with a ponytail His name is Philippe Ernewein, who taught me English, literature, and beat poet tall tales Many days after school I shared my tears with him, and he told me of his life It ended up he too grew up in rough times but perservered with might You see, he grew up in Belgium, where he watched The Lone Ranger He dreamed of seeing cowboys for real, so he wanted to go to America to catch Billy the Kid and derringers He said his dad died of an overdose, so his mom wanted to embrace the Land of Opportunity Where she can find a new hopeful life just as he desired in evety heartbeat He couldn't speak English at first, he was always picked on everywhere he went It wasn't till he was twelve that he knew English and he started to feel respect He was saddened to see there were no cowboys or Indians still riding along Yet he told me of a tool he found that pushed his heart on He visited Chaco Canyon where he worked as a park supervisor Where the natives cooked for him and befirended him and got him inspired It turned out they wrote poetry, and he began to write and write and write Which he has been doing ever since, day and night  So he told me, "Hey, have you ever thought of writing out your feelings?" I said, "Sure, though I might not be good, can you please teach me?" So he has given me a special gift I will never forget Eventually, he even introduced me to the Internet At first I visited forums that tore up my work and spit me in the face Until one day came when I stumbled across this place It was a bright December Day, one week before Christmas If you ever questioned why I call myself Mistletoe Angel, well, I guess it was just because of the Christmas spirit For the first eight months I've been here, very few ever noticed me When I was sharing all my sad thoughts and depression through poetry But last summer I got it all out and I've been writing mostly happy poetry All because of all you wonderful friends that I have made here in this coterie So this is the story of how I became a star here at Passions Yet I know my breakthrough is only just beginning, I just know it is As I keep writing and blending what I have to say to music And you are all wonderful friends that bring out the magic!  (Thank you all so much for being my friends, I am so happy and lucky to know you all and you will always be in my heart. I love you all so much! )Underneath your clothes, there's an endless story ***Shakira*** [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (06-06-2003 07:59 PM).] |
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QjQ Member Elite
since 2003-04-18
Posts 3756U.S.A. |
thanks for shareing this,, it was a very nice read... Poetry is a vision that portrays ones impressions.QjQ |
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Startime55 Member Elite
since 2003-04-05
Posts 2148Alberta, Canada |
A heartfelt sharing from a tender and sensitive heart....Well done, Noah...hugs.. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Thanks for the hanky alert Noah... Extremely well written... and congrats on the 1000th starting post. ~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~Somewhere in my heart I'm always |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Oh Noah, my dear friend, I'm so glad that I'm the first one of your friends to reply to your poem. You know how I feel about you. You are one of the sweetest and most caring people that I know. I have seen the way you treat each and every person who comes to this home of ours on these pages of blue. You always make the newcomers welcome and cry with all of us when we are sad and rejoice with us when we are happy. You are a very special person, my friend, and I hope that you don't ever forget it. You are also an excellent poet who is very talented. Heart hugs to you, my friend   Ethel [This message has been edited by garysgirl (06-06-2003 08:17 PM).] |
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yv Senior Member
since 2003-05-30
Posts 574 |
Wow. That was one of the most beautiful, truthful poems I have ever read. You are a paragon. Your bravery and your articulation in the matter is absolutely inspiring. As I said before, you are a god amongst mortals, my friend. You are a lovely human being and a wonderful poet. God bless you and keep you forever and ever. Oh, and congratulations on your 1000th post. It's quite a feat. Junior Member, yv |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
Hi! Nice to meet you. *smile* You are a very warm and supportive voice for all who visit here. I think I may have met this man you mention, in Chaco Canyon. *smile* He gave out real life saving advice: "Drink a pint of water an hour, or you will die here." It was 128 degrees. He was not kidding. *laugh* Your life has been hard; the best metal must be forged on the hardest surface. Thank you for sharing this view into your world. |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Noah, you are just the sweetest young man I have ever had the pleasure of making friends with. hugs & congrats. Chris  "Hope" is the thing with feathers- |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Noah, my heart is brimming with compassion--- and with joy for you! Your perseverance & growth as a person and as a poet are absolutely admirable! You are now flying high as the angel you are should be! You have answered some of the questions that I have had about you! Thank you for shedding some light on your life and sharing your personal story!  Love & Light, Linda |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
Noah - you'll always be my friend. I remember you from the very beginning and you have done wonders... BC |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Noah...You are special I believe...I'm so glad that you are part of this family! |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
oh Noah, you are so loved here! Things would not be the same without you!  |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Keep sharing the thoughts of your heart friend...you are a fantastic writer...James |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoyed very word |
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