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Regrets and Heartaches
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Regrets and Heartaches |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Regrets and Heartaches Looking back my greatest failure was my inability to engage in an honest relationship with my wife and children...my failure to be open and fair and sincere...my lack of desire to do everything I possibly could to make my life and their lives fulfilled and meaningful. Looking forward my future always seems to be clouded by the failures of my past...as if a merciless hurricane has thrown everything into disarray and I never seem to know where to begin to make my failures right again. On some occasions I have beautiful days until tarnished thoughts from my past arrive to drive them away...and then the remains of the hurricane engulf me again and the pain of regrets and heartache relentlessly pull me in. JamesLee May06 2003 |
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Patricia Member Elite
since 2003-04-06
Posts 2160Missouri |
Oh James. Honey, there is nothing you can do about the past. I know that sounds cliche. But it is true. Ask for forgiveness from those whom you have hurt. Apologize for your transgressions. This is all you can do. You must move into the moment, and look forward to the future. James, I so hurt for you now. Remember, He came so that you may enjoy your life. I want you to enjoy your life! We all have made mistakes. As humans, we all fall short of the glory. Forgive yourself. You will be in thoughts. -Patricia |
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just a junkie Member
since 2003-03-04
Posts 53 |
I kept thinking "my past keeps haunting me - it just won't leave me alone" I am very familiar with these feelings! Very well done! Just a Junkie |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
James... I think the most personal piece I have read from you... as for the past..sometimes it simply won't die and you can't run from it...so you have to learn to live with it and try not to repeat it. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Thank you Patricia, just a junkie and Cpat hair for your kind remarks. I try to live in the now and enjoy everyday as much as possible but the past is a persistant pest...thinking of the beautiful opportunities I messed up...thinking of all the time I missed with my boys...time that can never be regained...of course I enjoy good times with them now...but I miss the times lost. I suppose a good way to describe my feelings is the regret a person would live with that experienced a serious permanent physical injury...and every day when they awakened they would be reminded of the consequences of that injury...and how many times would they wish they could go back in time and relive that day sans the injury...I feel like my injury is permanent...although not physical but emotionally. Yes, that is the positive, to learn from my mistakes. Because no one can change the past...and of course it is a scary thought to again ask for forgiveness from my ex-wife because she will probably tell me I am getting what I deserve...there is always a price to pay...James |
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