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Allysa 
since 1999-11-09
Posts 1952In an upside-down garden 
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She crosses her legs watching as the others look at her and the girl on the couch grabs the remote to kill the reggae music Another day in the basement she's as close to the ground as she can get as close to dying as she can get without feeling some side effects. She wants to hug the christmas tree something in her mind told her that the happiness was at the top with the angel, and if she could only climb up she could grasp it in her fragile hands and hold it for all its worth. Unadequate and unsupervised she lives a life alone trapped inside her head She won't answer the door anymore cooks grilled cheese in the dark and watches her hands shake as she flips the bread, waiting for it to turn golden brown and crisp like her life used to be. She's shivering and rubbing her knees metallic skin won't warm quickly it takes a little while sometimes. Too bad she can't warm up her heart. He shows up at the door as she takes a bite of the gooey golden brown sanctuary and she doesn't want to answer but she knows she has to. She cannot cocoon herself in rainbow colored skittles so instead she swallows them up handful by handful. An antidote for the pain in this candy coated world she wearing suspenders to hold her insides together when they start to leak out. The magic 8-ball said that it would all end tomorrow and now she won't let him leave. 'No I won't go to the airport with you.' She can't bear to tell him that she won't ever let him go. so she asks again and shakes her future waiting for a different answer to the same old question she always asks herself. 'do you really love me?' How is she supposed to know she can't even tie her own shoelaces how could she be capable of deciphering his incoherent words mumbled late at night when shes attacking everything he says with everything she's got. It would be easier to be punch drunk, bleary eyed and at least a little numb she needs some anesthesia before the sadness sets in she can't love him or atleast she won't try. It's for the better. She crosses her legs again the music changes again she stops her heart again if she lets it go for too long she might just have to love him. |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssssss) I am so glad you got this back up here, dearest friend, that 8-ball certainly cannot tell anyones future, and as any pragmatist would say, why not try and go for it because only then will you have the opportunity AND know the truth? (sad sigh) Love can be a hard thing but never something that should be taken for granted, this is excellent, you have my vote, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Alyssa, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Gets my vote!  ~ Trace my body with your words.. |
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Joyce Johnson
since 2001-03-10
Posts 9912Washington State |
A heartbreaking story. Joyce |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
well done. . . one wants to take their place in the darkness with her. . . just to know her story. . . excellent work. . . --------------------------------------------------------- To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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WhiteRose Member Elite
since 2002-07-23
Posts 3208somebody's dungeon |
Yes, truly a heartbreaking story, and an excellent write. |
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Jason Lyle Senior Member
since 2003-02-07
Posts 1438With my darkling |
Happy to vote agian. Jason |
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noah j Member
since 2003-03-05
Posts 82on the open road with the wind blowing in my hair |
wow. i connect to this very much. sometimes it is just to scary to love. great job rendering that sort of loneliness that this creates in words. noah |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
Allysa, glad you reposted this so that i can vote...i think the imagery here is awesome... |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Good God Alyssa - Oh My - you have no idea how much I relate to this - gave me the chills it did - like I wrote it myself - goodness - is amazing . . . *wink* know that all too well - good luck with the book xxoo |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
Yep...I still like this one a bunch. "...until you have read the verse on his heart, |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
Revote. |
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aliisabeatle New Member
since 2003-03-19
Posts 4 |
this is the third of yours that I've ever read, and I really hope that it makes it into the book... ~Ali  |
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AnonomousHippie Junior Member
since 2003-02-21
Posts 10 |
revote |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Allysa, revote, too...  "Love makes the world go around" |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
This was even more heartbreaking the second read, and the line about burying herself in rainbow colored skittles, I liked! |
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Lost Dreamer Member Elite
since 1999-06-20
Posts 2464Somewhere near the Rainbow |
Wow! Amazing poem you've penned here, makes one feel the emotions going on very clearly.  Sometimes we have to follow a stronger voice, even if it's silent. |
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ZeraStarloft Junior Member
since 2003-01-07
Posts 11in a marigold |
you never cease to amaze me, dear. |
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Local Parasite
since 2001-11-05
Posts 2527Transylconia, Winnipeg |
Allysa, you know I love this poem... it's pretty long, I don't know if you'll be able to muster enough votes to get it into the book, but I certainly hope that you will. It's great to read this a second time. I've read it before and loved it, and that sentiment is no less true now.  Parasite [This message has been edited by Local Parasite (03-23-2003 05:17 PM).] |
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Allysa
since 1999-11-09
Posts 1952In an upside-down garden |
Parasite, you know your comments mean a lot to me, thank you.  I also hope that enough people will vote to put this in the book. also, a note from the author: I can/would like to edit this, maybe cut this down a bit.... however, I attempted to do that and since it's been up for more than 24hrs, I can't. But, I am willing to. "Wie ein Quadrat in einem Kreis, eck' ich immer wieder an obwohl ich doch schon lange weiß, daß ich niemals ändern kann." ~Wizo [This message has been edited by Allysa (03-24-2003 10:38 AM).] |
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Flower Member
since 2003-03-15
Posts 240California |
Gets my vote. Love reading all these great writes. |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
Bump.... "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Glad to see that you are racking up the votes for this wonderful write! This poem is a real, raw write! You really brought this reader into your space with this intimate expose. Love & Light, Linda |
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Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
Bump.... "Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
Allysa - held me right to the end of this write, my vote... BC |
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GG Member Elite
since 2002-12-03
Posts 3532Lost in thought |
I always go for chocolate instead of skittles *sigh* but boy do I understand. Couldn't stop from loving this one... Always, Alyssa - And so it was that time stood still - |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
how'd I miss this one? well I got it now! |
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QjQ Member Elite
since 2003-04-18
Posts 3756U.S.A. |
a absolute vote |
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