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Deliberate Misunderstandings
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Deliberate Misunderstandings |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Why, when I am being forthright, or, am frightened, or confused, you, twist to opposite, my meaning? Why is interpretation of my vulnerability so difficult for you to understand? Or, is it just too real? For, you would have to ~feel~. How long will it take for you to integrate your lovely self and be ~whole~? Will I ever see the day.... or, will that reward be someone else's pleasure, I, just the mode of transporatation to get you there? That hurts, you know. No, you don't know because you don't feel, and, I feel sorry for you, and for me. With tears and broken dreams, I cannot stay. I don't want to be your mother, I want to be your lover... and your wife. Guess I'll settle for just friends. I love you, but that is not enough. . . . A recent poem, brought back memories of a lost love. Never been sorry, sad but not sorry..... ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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Salty Senior Member
since 2002-11-23
Posts 669Texas |
Sounds as though he may gained insight at your expense. I know of one like this myself. Maybe you have gained something also ...you speak of not be sorry. Good on U! very well written ~Salty In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you. |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Excellent Patricia, sometimes you have to have the courage to step away and think about your own wants and needs. [This message has been edited by Aenimal (12-31-2002 01:18 PM).] |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Salty and Aenimal, Thanks for responding; it was heartbreaking, for sure...but, yes, we must take care of our own needs and wants; as a couple, you (I) have to have growth...it was not there...I felt and do feel sorry for him...I knew the reasons behind his fears he could not show, EVER...but....he found another one of me, and married that one....and divorced her...sad, sad,....but, life. I didn't desert him...I tried ever so hard to make it work...including working on my own fears, etc...not dumping on him.... empty relationship...great in parts! but not enough....this poem also reminds me, of other people I know in private life, close to me, alcoholic or addicts, who simply CANNOT, or, refuse to feel....and I don't push them...but, I don't sleep with them either...my heart goes out to all who just CAN'T..feel...sad! thanks, Pat  ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
you couldnt know how much this impacts me...and hits home to my heart.. thank you for sharing your wisdom, we learn our heart lessons the hard way, dont we. well done poetess. Will the wind remember the names it has blown in the past? |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
I know this feeling... and you explained it very well! I'm keeping this for my own personal reasons. ~Hugs, Smiles and a Happy New Year!~ ~Time has cast a spell on you, |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Janet, Thank you for sharing your thoughts...for sometimes, though this was long, long, ago....it seems like, perhaps only I have felt this way.... and given my background and horrific childhood, I am not always sure of myself...even, now, will all lessons learned, is ever that unsuredness of the power I do possess...my rightness to a decent life and love, my deserving ~more than~ the crumbs of life, though he was is a magnificent, successful, kind-hearted man, it didn't feel right. Thank you, Janet, for confirming my heart and mind..... Hugs, Pat ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Pat, this poem is so full of heart......it's touching. I'm glad to know that you have moved on. It is sad when a person can't "feel", isn't it, for whatever reason. I think it's good therapy to write about our hurts and pain. Besides, we never know who has similar feelings right now, and the poem might help. Thanks....  "Love makes the world go around" |
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Toerag Member Ascendant
since 1999-07-29
Posts 5622Ala bam a |
Yea, I know how ya felt....Balladeer does that to me all the time...I mean, I always mean to be nice to him...then he twists my words around to mean something entirely different..yanno? |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Some lessons come awfully hard don't they? Happy New Year |
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Sandpiper Senior Member
since 2002-06-15
Posts 738land of flora and fauna |
glad you took care of you--enjoyed the truth of this one--Happy New Year!! "And it was at that age...Poetry arrived in search of me...And something started in my soul." |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
very touching write, and thanks for sharing those memories |
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ThisDiamond Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353Michigan, USA |
Really struck me what a good time it is to empty out the lingering sadness...I think that anytime is right for that...but now especially appropriate. You did well with this, and I took away a strength, and love through these lessons. Hat's off to you... Happy New Year. ThisDiamond |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
Hi Patricia, the title drew me in and i must say that i felt your poem...i'm glad i am in tune with my emotions but sometimes wish that i am less sensitive so that i would be a simpler and more contented person if i don't feel so much... just a ponder... |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Hi Pat, some powerful emotions in this poem. Why must life be so darn hard and complicated? Hugs for good feelings and thoughts my friend ... Marti |
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