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regards2you
Member Elite

since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

0 posted 2002-12-25 06:25 PM

Where is the
How-To Book to

mind knit
to healed,

the
gut-gouge
running
to
sieved
wholeness

now,
dripping
life
flow?

I came loose,

with
the loss
of

you.

And now,
~I~ am stopped dead!

Burning smoulder
sucked into
singed
lungs,

suffocating
my ~once complete~.

Yet, I am supposed
to go on somehow,

alone?

To this
deafening,
paralyzing,
numbness
of
self,

I shriek:

"Breathe,
damn you,
BREATHE!"

.
.

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

[This message has been edited by regards2you (12-26-2002 08:17 AM).]

Magnus

Member Laureate

since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

1 posted 2002-12-25 07:40 PM

Eyoweeee! Pat, I hope you are not feeling
this right now....YES....breath!!!

Dark Angel
Member Patricius

since 1999-08-04

Posts 10095

2 posted 2002-12-25 08:54 PM

This made me hold my breath... hope you're ok.

Maree

regards2you
Member Elite

since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

3 posted 2002-12-25 09:02 PM

Barry,

Oh, sorry. No, no, no...A close friend lost her husband. This is first holiday without him. They were the closest couple I've ever met. Worshipped each other. She's having a hard time. I hurt for her, so won't show her the poem...this is how I know she feels... They took me under their wing, so to speak, when I was having some problems, I am very attached...
she mother-like to me. It is a heartbreaking situation, she has been hosptalized three times since. Early 70's...last three days she has been on my mind, and snowed up the mountain so I couldn't go visit her. Lives alone.

With your comment I guess I captured it. Barely, though...they found that once in a lifetime love, late in life and were only married 15 yrs. Very devastating...Thanks for comments.
Sorry... Hugs, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

4 posted 2002-12-25 09:41 PM

While I haven't "lost" a husband, I lost a husband, and I can remember just telling myself to "breathe"...it's a piece of language I use, a lot...

and this...

this shows the depth of your heart, writing for another. Thank you, Pat...

regards2you
Member Elite

since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

5 posted 2002-12-25 09:57 PM

Maree,

Thanks for responding. Sorry, I am breathing fine... Hugs, Pat

Karilea,

That is interesting re: the breathing comment you made. This dearest sweet lady doesn't really want to...Though I've known a lot of my own personal pain as most have, this particular situation is one of sadest I've encountered. They adored each, ~lived~ for each other..I had some selfish reasons to write it, just to get it out of my mind and heart. Writing helps so much, either form of journaling or my favorite now, poetry. Thanks for your input; greatly appreciated.

Hugs, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

inkedgoddess
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

6 posted 2002-12-26 06:48 AM

liked the story, l5 years of joy, is nothing to take lightly at all,

regards2you
Member Elite

since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
California

7 posted 2002-12-26 07:38 AM

Thanks for responding Inkedgoddess.
Of course not. At least she had 15 yrs and many of us don't get that experience. They were a particularly outgoing, loving couple. They shined, practically. I have felt this way with the break up of a relationship, and I think many have. The feelings are not unique, she is because she is in my life, because they cared for and loved me...they, especially kind, thoughtful, one-of-a-kind people; she could better do without a leg or arm than this. They "did" Christmas up like one huge gift to any coming in contact, from decorations to food to gifts...spectacular..this is her first without all the splendor they created during the holidays. It is a tough one
Thanks, Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

Sandpiper
Senior Member

since 2002-06-15

Posts 738
land of flora and fauna

8 posted 2002-12-26 08:14 AM

your words sting with the sadness she must feel--well done--may she find a place of peace..

"And it was at that age...Poetry arrived in search of me...And something started in my soul."
Pablo Neruda

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

9 posted 2004-05-06 12:48 PM

I feel this way too

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

10 posted 2004-05-06 03:58 PM

Pat~
And I know just how you have continued to comfort and friend-care for this woman~

You are the friend beyond the circle to many~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost,
the spirit rejoices over what it has left.
- Sufi epigram <))><

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