Open Poetry #24 |
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A Lactose Intolerant Christmas |
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Skyfire![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2000-12-27
Posts 3381Riding ![]() |
It's almost impossible for me to write a poem about the holidays this year. The last three years I've been depressed and controlled by people who have no right to control me. It seems like something's missing when I don't have to say to my parents that I'm depressed; when the school doesn't phone home because I'm suicidal. (little do they know that I've got other problems this year) It doesn't feel like Christmas. In a week and a half I have to go back to school and back to the dramas that plague dorm life. Maybe I'll stop drinking this year... haven't drank since that night with them. Maybe this year will be full of joy or maybe it won't I don't know and I'm not going to worry about it, but I'll remember to put a Lactaid pill out with the glass of milk just in case Santa is lactose intolerant too. Two centimeters of snow, and still I haven't ridden; but maybe I'll ride tomorrow... (Merry Christmas, Shammie, now stand still while I put the saddle on.) I think I'll take some pictures, it's just not the same without them, you know? I'll plaster my dorm room with them and sit and brood for the rest of the semester; wishing that I could go back to the days when I was a little girl and each Christmas morning my eyes would light up when I saw the toys Santa brought. When my mom and dad would wait anxiously for me to open my presents so they could see my face... I'll wipe away the tears and pretend that I don't miss being a little girl; and I'll go over to Ryan's and we'll walk down to the gas station; but I won't remember a thing the next day. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Keep that pill handy and have a safe and happy holiday........Nice to get the general and meet you......wish you the best! |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Sweetie I hope you get through the holidays and can manage a smile from time to time. Being away at school and living in a dorm is not easy. I am on my third child away at school and he has his ups and downs too! Hang in there. If there's anything I can do to help or you need someone to talk with, please feel free to email me. Hugs, Marti from Boston Let our love circle the world and |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Rhonda, I felt a lot of emotion and heart in this poem. Kinda "homesick", even at home, is what I got from your poem, little friend. You know, once you've lived "away from home", even in a dorm, things aren't ever quite the same as before. Good luck, Rhonda. BTW, as old as I am, I still get "homesick" for the days I was a teen-ager at home, with not really any worries. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Skyfire let's not sugarcoat it. Life really sucks. I've been around for awhile and I've seem way too much bullS**t in my time. Obviously you've seen way too much and it's robbed you of that little girl. But here's my thought on suicide, what if reincarnation exists? That means you have to come back here and start aaaaall over again. And well, that just blows. Don't let the bastards grind you down. You're eluding to some dark times and dark problems but you have to fight through it. There are things worth living for and if so find them and fight for them. [This message has been edited by Aenimal (12-25-2002 02:03 AM).] |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
yep, I know it too! Good write, very expressive. |
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Midnitesun![]()
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
![]() Saddle up and ride, get those blues outta your hide! As for Santa? Just give him a cup of hot of apple cider with a cinnamon stick. |
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