Open Poetry #23 |
post traumatic stress |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
There's a chill blowin' in from the North this morn but I guess it's just what I expect-- it sure felt good to sleep again-- there's rest to be found in dreamless retreat. There was frost on the grass and it bit my toes as I shivered my path to the morning news-- not much coffee is needed now-- ice is better than caffeine. I think I'll take the curtains down-- I want to see the sky today. I want the sun to shine on me and warm my bones in healing light. It was a dose of medicine to go home once again. Funny, I've been alien ever since I left. No explanations are needed there-- there is no harangue of "why"-- if you are hungry they'll feed you, and when you weary--they grant sleep. Now I'm back in my foxhole-- incredibly alert to sound-- waiting for the sneak attacks-- sometimes it's all too much... There are times here when I pretend--peace-- sometimes even Charly sleeps-- but always there's expectancy of when I'll have to rage again. I wonder who has ever won a war of such futility-- what is it that I'm fighting for? *fighting to remember me* an innocence forever lost home is just a memory-- if I live I'll wear the scars-- raising this unlikely child for I have birthed instinct to kill... I spawned hatred in myself. |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Serenity, Your title says it all, and you are not alone. This most likely will have been my favorite of your poems, it SPEAKS..... to many! Excellent, to say the least. Thank you for this. Warm Regards, Pat ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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Lady In White
since 2001-02-12
Posts 2799USA |
there's rest to be found in dreamless retreat. There was frost on the grass and it bit my toes as I shivered my path to the morning news-- not much coffee is needed now-- ice is better than caffeine. ~*~ Now the Cpat will be asking for you to write warm, as you do so very well... I know, I know... |
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Sudhir Iyer Member Ascendant
since 2000-04-26
Posts 6943Mumbai, India : now in Belgium |
I am chilled... oops rather thrilled to read such fascinating poetry... Thanks for the read, Regards, sudhir |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
You have experienced a great deal in life and all those experiences have lead to who you are today. We truly are the sum total of all our life experiences. The beautiful, loving, carefree spirit of Karen still resides in you. She has perhaps had to deal with too much in life and she sometimes seek refuge deep, down inside of Serenity Blaze. When you look in the mirror, look deeply into your eyes and you will see her smiling back--and give her the love that she deserves. Linda |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Amazing...absolutely amazing. You always leave me shaking my head in awe. ~Hugs m'friend~ ~Love, like magic, depends on believing~ |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
Stark and chill... we all have those things you just express yours so eloquently. |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Well, dear lady, this knocked my socks off this morning! Fantastic write. I just love your poems; you are truly an inspiration. Hugs, Marti "I am not afraid of STORMS for I have learned how to sail my SHIP." |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Serenity - this is an amazing write. Frightening, poignant, but amazing in its honesty. I actually see two poems here. The sad ending is 1 and the hopeful part is 2. would love to see it written as such. Part I - the fear, the sadness, the horror Part II - recovery and hope. Publish it. loved this: I think I'll take the curtains down-- I want to see the sky today. Wishing your soul peace, Core |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Thanks all for reading... such generosity from you all-- I do appreciate your vote of confidence-- er, I just "fake" that, yanno? |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
And if all tear drops went to heaven ... And if all pain was divine, Then honey would I be your salvation ... baby I could I make your spirit shine. Theres a light trapped behind your eyes... all my life ... all my life I waited to see your spirit rise. Noah Hunt "Nimbus" No one has ever shown me how to see the world the way I see it now ... |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
serenity Wonderful lines, excellent read. |
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Contabo Member
since 2001-11-21
Posts 159 |
This was a very poetically accurate observation. Contabo |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Now I'm back in my foxhole-- incredibly alert to sound-- waiting for the sneak attacks-- sometimes it's all too much... Simply awesome write dear poetess - gave me shivers it so good. Chris "Hope" is the thing with feathers- |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
serenity I don't know what to say, so just want to give you a hug. |
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Kielo Senior Member
since 2002-02-11
Posts 1109 |
if I live I'll wear the scars-- raising this unlikely child for I have birthed instinct to kill... I spawned hatred in myself. Wow. I loved these last lines. This is one of the few poems I'm not sure I want to relate to, though I do relate anyway. Thank you for writing so beautifully always. Kielo |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Serenity~ A very serious poem that comes from deep within your heart. Makes me think about someone that has faced the enemy within and prevailed thru strength and dedication...Paul [This message has been edited by Paul Wilson (11-18-2002 10:35 PM).] |
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Miah Senior Member
since 2002-08-26
Posts 1062Pennsylvania |
Just a wonderful read. |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssss) Oh Karen, I hope all of this is out of your bloodstream now, sweet friend, believe me, I too knew these feelings ever too well and it takes a lot of courage to fight it all away! (sigh) This is well-said, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Karen, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
Such powerful images here, Karen... Oh what a terrrific write!!!!! ~ loving chipmunk hugs Lyra |
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