Opportunitys fail to exist
Nineteen haven't been kissed
My youth passing, memories harrassing
Every thought amassing
Reflecting on lonely nights
Depression reached new heights
An addict for years
Multiple fears, few close peers
Pain of all forms inflicted
Brain conflicted
Horrid visions, bad decisions
A life i couln't envision
Wouldn't want for anyone else
The loneliness and pain i've felt
Will my life improve
Or am i stuck in a groove
Born loser, drug abuser
Excuse maker, not knowing
Inner tears flowing
Fake emotions showing
As a person i'm growing
Avoiding the future, can't deny the previous
Experiences have made me devious
Why am I doomed
all hopes being consummed
Need some good now not later
Only chance of my life being greater
This is how i feel and have felt
In this life hand i've been dealt
Waiting for my chance to shine
A life i'd be proud to call mine