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Pollita
Member

since 2002-07-25

Posts 220
the unknown realm of insanity

0 posted 2003-08-04 12:54 PM

Falling,
                  Dying,
Crying.

     Happenings that I now feel responsible for.
My idiocy has now once again dug me into guilt.
Why do I feel that its all my fault,
When I know its not.

It takes both of us to make a mistake like this,
Then why do I not overlook it as in the past?
Wishing for a miracle,
To turn back time and be there with you,
        Holding
                    your
    hand.

I know that nothing will change,
And im just surrendering into my childish dreams.
Its hard for me to be around you,
And know about the past with her.

I understand why you didn’t tell me,
Although at the same time you know I would of handled it better then.
Now Im just questioning,
Whether that was the case with me too.

You didn’t need to hide it from me,
Not for so long anyway.
I now feel pathetic,
For believing in love,
When all it is, is pain.

Hopefully some day I will find out how I can put it behind us,
At the moment I cannot though.
I know you’re sorry…
But Im still afraid of being in love with you right now,
Although I do, and I always will.

* A wise monkey never monkies with another monkey's monkey *

[This message has been edited by Pollita (08-04-2003 01:05 PM).]

Match
Member

since 2002-07-01

Posts 286
Canada Edmonton

1 posted 2003-08-04 02:25 PM

They are always sorry....I liked this one

I wear my crown of thorns
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair

Lexy
Senior Member

since 2003-01-28

Posts 1038
California

2 posted 2003-08-04 03:39 PM

I now feel pathetic for believeing in love, when all it is is pain. I think..this was a good expression of how your feeling. I think you could have gotton more creative with it. But I know its hard when you are going through something like this. Great job. I hope to read more from you.
I hope things get better.
~Lex

dertah
Senior Member

since 2003-06-18

Posts 584

3 posted 2003-08-04 11:17 PM

ahh, the question of trust. thats hurting someone really bad right now. but good write.

Skyfire

Member Elite

since 2000-12-27

Posts 3381
Riding

4 posted 2003-08-07 12:53 PM

"I now feel pathetic,
For believing in love,
When all it is, is pain."

Oh honey

you're much too young to have to feel that, where is he? I'll kick his sorry butt for causing you to feel that.

It's hard to grow up and watch your friends remain in the same mindset that you left them in

Pollita
Member

since 2002-07-25

Posts 220
the unknown realm of insanity

5 posted 2003-08-07 04:39 PM

Heh, Rhonda....you shouldnt kick his ass...yet. Im okay now...well, with him anyways. we're friends. now Im just upset over my family. It seems that Im never doing anything right...and my moms bf seems to think that he could pretty much call me a lil ho and then get away with it. when truth is, Im not the alcoholic that got mah mom pregnant! SO THERE!!! Heh, Im almost crying...*hugs*

* A wise monkey never monkies with another monkey's monkey *

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