An outcast even in my own home
The place where I am normally left alone
No one cares when i here
and when I am I am in constant fear

I long to have a normal family
but, I am stuck in a family thats never heard of simplicity
A loving embrace or gentle tongue thats what i want
But i get words and fears that in my head haunt

The constant yelling, always fighting
For the house "christian" it is quite stunning
The nagging about weight or money
The screaming "MALLOREE" or "oh Honey's"

My ears are shattered, my heart broken
I can never talk to my mom, laughing with Kaitlin
I have no home in this house for my heart doesn't lie
What would they all say if i said "Bye"

Would they care? take another look
I would be closed like a Harry potter book
Hastly stuck on the shelf for its ugly cover
Why didn't you ever talk to me mother?

I can only ponder in my coffin like room
where pictures of the perfect life loom
Even my dog is an outcast, yelled at, kicked
But, I guess thats why we are so strongly linked

I look back to the pictures on the wall
I was on top of the world i couldn't fall
I was strong, loved with strangers
for the people i know have sudden hidden dangers

Will I let that hurt me? I am an outcast
I know this phase will never last
Oh, wait,what time has flown by
Fifteen years and still the end is still so shy