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You Stupid Boy
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You Stupid Boy |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(Hanky-Alert Poem)  You Stupid Boy By: Noah Eaton 9/28/02 Well I used to be scared every night Lost myself in sorrow in the jester's venipuncture No propensity to hope when I was anesthetized Seems I would just go off on any random measure School kids pushed me onto the pavement I couldn't talk until I was three years old Is there something terminally wrong with me? I can remember my mom hugging me, crying with her face so cold Saying, "You stupid boy!" Will you be this way forever You stupid boy If only I could tell you how I feel whatsoever You stupid boy Don't tell me God made you this way I just hope I come around someday... 3 A.M and I'm not sleeping Don't want to have nightmares tonight I'm fishing for answers to my questions So many salty tears to fight Spent two weeks in a quiet hospital Felt my heart was in hemorrhage The fear spread through me like a cancer Living on Sesame Street, orange juice and syringes And you said, "You stupid boy!" Will you be this way forever You stupid boy If only I could tell you how I feel whatsoever You stupid boy Don't tell me God made you this way I just hope I come around someday... Couldn't speak, I couldn't move You thought I was becoming mute Had seizures in the night I cried Praying for an angel to arrive... Sixteen days went by eventually They discovered I had Asperger's Syndrome Spent years attending a therapist for help I just wanted so badly to go home School kids pushed me onto the pavement I couldn't talk until I was three years old Is there something terminally wrong with me? I can remember my mom hugging me, crying with her face so cold Dropping to her knees, and she said: "You stupid boy!" Will you be this way forever You stupid boy If only I could tell you how I feel whatsoever You stupid boy Don't tell me God made you this way I just hope you come around someday... You said "You stupid boy!" Will you be this way forever You stupid boy If only I could tell you how I feel whatsoever You stupid boy Don't tell me God made you this way I just hope you come around someday... I just hope you come around someday... I just hope you come around someday... I just hope you come around someday... I just hope you come around someday... Oh, you stupid boy... Oh, you stupid boy... You stupid boy... You stupid boy... "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." Shakira [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (09-28-2002 07:27 PM).] |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Oh Noah, you aren't stupid at all..... I hope all is ok with you today...(((hugs))) |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia |
Hello Noah Your words chilled me to the bone and I felt your pain so vividly. I can only hope that a lot of your pain has dispersed even tho I'm sure your memories are still clear. I hope these words warm your heart a little : When the willow bends at the first hint of troubled breezes our friends come running to see how they can help. Sometimes friends know when they are needed even before we realise it ourselves, because we are accustomed to letting them in on the happenings of our lives * * * A real friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be on the way down * * * One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood * * * Take care my friend Love Sue I am in motion |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Noah, thank you for the "hanky-alert"--I needed it. I just looked up Aspergers Syndrome and it is a form of autism. Apparently it is a neurological disorder that makes it very difficult for those who have it to make friends, carry on conversations or feel a full range of emotions. Look what you have managed to accomplish given the obstacles you have had to overcome. You, sweet Noah, have more friends than anyone on the planet, your "conversation" on the printed page is beyond human (of course it is--you're an angel!), and talk about expressing a wide range of emotions---well, the proof is in the pudding--you are awesome, you are smart and I and hundreds of other people LOVE YOU! Stupid Boy? I don't think so! Smart Man?---Absolutely YES!!! Love, Linda |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoy  thank you for sharing this |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
Noah - I read this and felt your emotions. You are not a stupid boy, no way.. You are one of the most gentle and caring persons I've had the privelege to meet... BC |
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paladin
since 2001-08-05
Posts 930Pensacola,Fl. |
My birth father got my 14yo mother pregnant and died on a beach in the south pacific.I was brought up with the stigma of being a bastard.My mother never mentioned my father with out a curse word.My grand mother said I had the evil of my father in my veins.She would look at me with cruel eyes and quote the bible."The sins of the father......."Words can do more damage than physical abuse.We can appear to be over them but the scars seldom show.It takes a strong man to show compasion and sensitivity.I respect you and salute you.The order of the golden heart for one of passions heros. paladin |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Dearest Noah, Sometimes parents, people who think they are adults, children, pastors, and doctors can be so blind to the fact that each of us is special in one way or another. It just takes time and patience on the part of the caretaker. But, as the saying goes, "patience is a virtue." Not many of us have it. You have been through so much in your life and will probably face adversity once again, as we all do, but you will face it bravely and with a brilliance that outshines all others. Take heart my friend. I must go get another kleenex. hugs, Chris Life is not measured by breaths you take, but by moments that take your breath away. |
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Tiersdin Member Elite
since 2000-11-17
Posts 2364east coast |
Noah, did you know that your name meant, "comfort" or "consolation"? well it does and you are that to so many of us here. Each time that you reply to my post, it feels as if I've been given the softest, squeeziest (though that's not a word ) hug. I'm always appreciative of that. Others can be cruel and give up on you, but never ever give up on yourself. You have proven, as Earth Angel mentioned, that you have long since out grown the little boy who was called such an unfair name. But, even if you still feel him inside, cherish him, protect him, and most of all, remove the blame from him. Nothing that happened was ever your fault. Whenever you feel this way, remind yourself that you were just a child and it wasn't your fault. I love you, Noah.. *hugs* ~Tier "I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..." |
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Singing Sparrow Member
since 2002-05-12
Posts 94 |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
I love you sidekick. |
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SimplyGold Senior Member
since 2002-07-10
Posts 1453 |
Noah, When I first read your warm and loving reply to my first post. I thought " this is an angel whose spirit soars and is a healer" Your soul comes through so strongly, you are a blessing. You are intelligent, warm, caring, sensitive and tender. This list can go on. Do you doubt it? Just look at the reponses that you receive. Noah, That experience was a lifetime ago. Feel pity for the one who used this. "Forgive them for they know not what they say. Forgive them for they know not what they do" They cannot hurt you now, do not let them hurt you anymore. I'm so glad you're you! A loving Piptalk Friend  [This message has been edited by SimplyGold (09-29-2002 10:45 PM).] |
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ecrivan Member Elite
since 2001-12-10
Posts 3923my own state |
Stop the crying now and start being happy...your values are precious and you have friends who value YOU |
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FuzzyFrazzledFraggle Member
since 2002-09-20
Posts 155Fraggle Rock |
 and then some, Sweet Mistletoe Angel! Your words grace these pages with such style and your words definately made me cry! You've come a long way apparently, chin up! We all Love you, And God as you can tell will never let you down! You seem very optimistic and bring forth much love and friendship to everyone...send some my way if you can  Consider yourself fuzzed |
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CSKpoet Senior Member
since 2002-07-12
Posts 845Island in Paradise |
I am just without the right words to express about this...all I can say is Look how beautiful a man Noah is, God's man, and a bright shining light who comforts all of us. Big huge hugs to you! Hope you can handle all of this love You bloom so beautifully! Cher Poetry is: |
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Paul Wilson
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Noah...You have but to read all these sweet replies and look into your heart for the answer.God has rescued you from this ordeal because he has a special place for you in his heart and a master plan of which you are a part of...Paul |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Noah, you have climbed an emotional Pike's Peak...or was it Everest? Look how far away from that deep valley you are now! You are now in complete control, and the pathway is yours to choose.    |
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rwood Member Elite
since 2000-02-29
Posts 3793Tennessee |
I've always seen beautiful things in your poetry. So much good..so much heart..and a sincere openness that most of us have to grow to learn..to express. A gift you are and have. Love and hugs. Reg |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Noah, my sweet, lovable friend. I constantly talk with my friends about you telling them of your poems, your loving heart and how brilliant you are. Your childhood was not filled with wonderful memories, but hopefully you can put those days behind you and know that now you are loved and admired. You are special ... Hugs, Marti |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
http://users.wpi.edu/~trek/aspergers.html#what Isn't it interesting how people can come to conclusions without knowing "the rest of the tory"? I have linked a site, Noah, to this poem of yours, so people can find out a little more about medical complications such as yours. You have done so much with your life - I know you are going to continue to do oh so much more! |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
{{{{{HUGZ}}}}} my friend, life is full of challenges... all of which somebody with a heart and mind as strong as yours will have no problems overcoming. Stay strong my friend and you will make it with flying colors. Strive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
no way stupid... hard to live through these kinds of words, but you are proof it can be done. |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
Noah, first off, let me say, "You Are Not A Stupid Boy"! You are a very kind, thoughtful and compassionate person. I am so sorry you had to grow up hearing this. |
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Irie Senior Member
since 1999-12-01
Posts 1493Washington State |
~*Pushing back the tears*~ Oh Noah, this is SO sad, I almost couldn't finish reading it. AS a mother of a 5 year old, I can't even imagine, and don't care to. This is awful, for such a small child to go through, let alone any child. If this is a personal experience you've had....I'm so sorry you have to deal with it. HUGS to you! ~Sheri |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Noah Perhaps the hateful words she spoke, and the time you spent being ill, helped make you the sensitive, sweet caring man you are. Certain spirits are made stronger by adversity, and you, my friend, have a strong spirit. |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
noah- you are certainly not stupid--in fact i think you are brilliant! this was so sad, i hope things are well for you now take care hon.amy "if irish eyes are smiling...they are probably up to something" :) |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
I would cry if I didn't think that you were smart enough to know the truth |
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Auguste
since 2000-02-16
Posts 3953By the sea |
Noah, I have to agree with Linda. You're a very special and wonderful person & friend. |
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Krishankins
since 2002-06-23
Posts 972Texas |
I see you got it posted, Noah. I would first like to applaud your WONDERFUL courage in being able to share this with so many people. I also applaud your writing ability. This is written so, that it feels like you are inside the child's mind. One line stood out to me the most, "Living on Sesame Street, orange juice, and syringes" This is so dramatic!! Sad piece, Noah. I'm sorry that you had to go through such an ordeal. You have definitely "came around". Your talent as a writer, and as a friend have been an inspiration to many.....MANY people here on passions. I can only imagine how many people in your everyday life have benefitted from knowing you. I know I have, and I've never even met you!! I hope you continue to inspire those around you with the love, courage, and understanding that you give so freely every day. Thanks for the write, Noah!!!!!!!!! Kris  Hey dog, did you see the size of that chicken!? |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
Noah~ You are a bright and shining star, a light that turns a dark and gloomy day into instant sunshine. Nothing about you is stupid. If only others (including me) had a heart as warm as yours. Hugs, Deb |
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