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Momma, Was It Me?
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Momma, Was It Me? |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA 
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Eyes, lips, the voice all convey a meaning... Eyes of a child worrying... Of a child listening to Mom and Dad fighting The tears as anger is thrown.. Tears even once a child is grown.. Biting the lip, hiding the pain of a past where demons walked the dark halls. And screams echoed the walls. The quavering voice of desperation of need, of wanting to feel... Feel safe...as the words Momma!!!! Are shouted into the din of harshness.. too very real... Unheard, said yet again, Momma!!! Crying for lack of response... Hiding, under the bed.... Watching for demons and dread.. Whispering now, Momma, I am afraid... Momma, please stop fighting... What did I do wrong Momma, was it me? Is it me that makes you so angry? Momma, I love you... Can't you see me down here, on the floor. See me through the crack in my door. When Dad threw you there... As I lied beneath my bed... Praying, saying.... Momma!!! [This message has been edited by Magnus (09-15-2002 01:22 PM).] |
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Match Member
since 2002-07-01
Posts 286Canada Edmonton |
I know this to well, brings back memories, It made me cry. It's really good. ~*Azi*~ |
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Elizabeth
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Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
Very sad that it's the kids who feel they should be blamed for it.  You painted the scene well, Barry. God bless America, my home sweet home. |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Match...remember this...it is never the child's fault for the behavior of the adult. No matter what... Sorry I brought out tears, hope they are healing tears... Elizabeth...yes, very sad that a child would feel responsible, yet too many do and grow up with that same feeling late into life.. And, unfortunately...they also carry into their adult lives those same angers and behaviors. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Such a sad write Barry.... I do hope it wasn't about you... ~I have now given you over 6000 hugs, would you believe?~ Feel better?  ~ Time has cast a spell on you |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
I just want to give that hurting, little boy in you, a great big hug!---and one as well for the man who wrote this moving piece. The message inherent in this write, is a very important one. Linda |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Nancy and Linda...thank you both, Nancy for the 6000 plus hugs...and to both for your words.. Thankfully, I never lived in an environment where there was a lot of violence.....I lived in one almost as harming....one of silence, anxiety and criticism... But, I know I didn't make our home life the way it was....I just grew up in it.. And after many years, I have come to understand that it wasn't me, and it wasn't them.... It was generations of growing up the same way in all of the families... My father and his brothers are good examples, live within 35 miles of each other and rarely communicate... I grew up in an environment which had minimal comms. and I fight that within my own person, each day I live.... to be more open and communicative...let them in...so to speak... Thanx girls, now that I have shared my life history with you.... |
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TradingSpaces19 Member
since 2002-08-31
Posts 134Arvada, Colorado |
This made me cry because I can relate to that. Before I was born and for a little while after "my father" used to beat my mom and yell at my brothers, sometimes hit them. He would get drunk and then come home and do that. This is a good poem though and thank you for sharing it with everyone. Love, Andrea Kruckenberg |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Barry, this is so very sad, I can't understand those who abuse others like that, and I hope this is fictional to you though the sad reality is that this is fairly common and my heart goes out to all the victims of abuse! (wipes tears) God Bless You, sweet friend, I am speechless at the time and I send you many angel hugs, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Barry, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Pilgrimage Member Elite
since 2001-12-04
Posts 3945Texas, USA |
This is heartwrenching. I grew up with parents who loved each other and us, and I never heard them argue, much less fight. My own boys didn't get that, and I'm sorry for it. I did my best, and their father left when Tim was 5 and Steve was 9 months old. I know it has scarred them to grow up without him, but it would have been worse with him, and they are fine young men. Insecure, shy, and quick to accept guilt for almost anything, and what can I do but love them and hope some day they gain what they lack? Nan(Pilgrim variety) |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
This is so sad, Magnus! I remember when I was a little girl. It seems I was told alot of times when things went wrong, it was because of something I did. I was filled with guilt by the time I was grown. Everytime something went wrong, I always felt like it was my fault. |
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