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Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

0 posted 2002-06-10 09:56 PM

There's no one listening when I cry
loved ones see and then they sigh
all discreetly turn away
when ugly depression is on display

no one acknowledges what triggers the fall
yet blame one another for nothing and all
I'm left to sink or swim alone
an unwanted guest in my own home

sometimes I wish that I could die
to snuggle beneath the empty lie
but guilt has held me in it's chains
dangled my children in mocking disdain

Painful to wake to "one more day"
to find "death" hasn't gone away
a permanent part, my next of kin
my sensual lover, my carnal sin

no one notices his rough embrace
the scars that time will not erase
with daggers he claims me as his own
a prisoner within my skin and bone

Death persuades with lusty call
a promise if I'd just end it all
& lay to rest this mess called life
my farce of motherhood and wife

I ache...

& sometimes want to believe
that death just might be good for me
to never wake up to suffer this way
nor be ignored by those who say~

they love me,

when actions prove them false
walk out on them all, to their loss
but reality knows I'm going to stay
& suffer the pain of another day,
sad to say...

I, ache...

~R.T.
6/02

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

Morcastlin
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since 2002-01-14

Posts 244
The Jersey Shore, USA

1 posted 2002-06-10 09:59 PM

This is a fine piece of poetry! Well done!

Love,
Bonnie

"I want to Live! Life is a banquet and most poor bastards are starving to death!" -Auntie Mame

the_loner_23
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since 2002-06-08

Posts 5479
Jacksonville, Florida, USA

2 posted 2002-06-10 09:59 PM

That was deep stuff. But very awesome. I enjoyed it.

Cold hands means a warm heart

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

3 posted 2002-06-10 10:01 PM

Thanks Bonnie and "loner", I appreciate your comments...

~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

4 posted 2002-06-10 10:03 PM

TiersdinSIS~
Well written emote ... but oh, so desperately sad~
*HUGS*
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
[email protected]

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

5 posted 2002-06-10 10:10 PM

Thank you, Margieluv... these are my true feelings, at least tonight...

*hugs*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

catalinamoon

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since 2000-06-03

Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone

6 posted 2002-06-10 10:12 PM

Tiers, I hate that you feel so depressed. I have been in that place often, and the loneliness is so hard. Hang on though, cause you have so many gifts, and reasons to be here.
Sandra

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

7 posted 2002-06-10 10:14 PM

Thank you so much, Sandra... I have been hanging on, sometimes just barely~ since my teens. Writing is my great escape...

*hugs*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

LilTai
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since 2002-06-08

Posts 189
United States

8 posted 2002-06-10 11:03 PM

Wow, this was written wonderfully...so much emotion. I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad *hugs* I wish there were something I could do. Your poem was beautiful though.

Tai

I'm an idealist..I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way =)

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

9 posted 2002-06-10 11:19 PM

Thank you, Tai... I appreciate that.

*hugs*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

devina
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since 1999-10-28

Posts 3539
Cali

10 posted 2002-06-10 11:53 PM

You drip of emotion here...moms seem to get the rough end quite a bit in my opinion...

*Big hugs from mom to mom*

and hey- if ms. margie-marge loves you, then I send my mushy love as well!!!

Take care~
~D

Open arms can be the most fragile in the world...

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

11 posted 2002-06-10 11:56 PM

Thank you, Devina.

I think your quote says it all...

*hugs*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

wranx
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since 2002-06-07

Posts 3689
Moved from a shack to a barn

12 posted 2002-06-11 12:09 PM

Wonderful in its' entirety, This grabbed me

"no one notices his rough embrace
the scars that time will not erase
with daggers he claims me as his own
a prisoner within my skin and bone"

Well done,

~wranx

"Writing is a perfectly natural thing to do....just remember to wash your hands afterward"....Heinlein.

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

13 posted 2002-06-11 12:17 PM

Thank you, Wranx. I've read your work as well... excellent!

*smiles*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

mycafe
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since 2002-05-23

Posts 584

14 posted 2002-06-11 01:56 AM

I could really feel the emotions in here. A wonderful write!

mycafe

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

15 posted 2002-06-11 02:43 AM

Thank you, Mycafe, so kind of you to say...

~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

Gentle Spirit
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since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

16 posted 2002-06-11 06:29 AM

Tiersdin, I have found that when I am feeling this way, getting it out and writing the emotions into beautiful poetry really helps. Hugs and hope you feel better soon.

Like a red brick,
in a white wall
somebodies brush
forgot to paint...
lonely....(as sung by Tracy Lawrence..)

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

17 posted 2002-06-11 11:48 AM

Thank you, Gentle spirit, I think you've chosen a very accurate name...

*smiles*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

TwoHeartsOnePen
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since 2002-06-07

Posts 60
state of determination

18 posted 2002-06-11 01:21 PM

I have found that ache can last, until it is healed

thank you for your words

Distance is the prison for our bodies, but no prison could weaken our passion.

Interloper

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since 2000-11-06

Posts 8369
Deep in the heart

19 posted 2002-06-11 01:29 PM

Wonderfully written

Fool, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write.

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

20 posted 2002-06-11 04:14 PM

know that there will always be those who care. . . including me. . .

powerfully done my friend. . .

-------------------------------------------------------

To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

21 posted 2002-06-11 04:20 PM

Excellent writing...James

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

22 posted 2002-06-11 04:55 PM

Two hearts, Interloper, and James M., thank you all for your kind comments. As always, they are appreciated more than I can say...

Sven, thank you, and you will always have a friend in me...

*group squeeze*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

Madame Chipmunk
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since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

23 posted 2002-06-11 05:09 PM

Tier...this is a lovely poem, with pain just dripping from between the lines...
I am so glad that you have found poetry as a means of therapy.
It has meant so much to me also.
I've been through a lot in the past few years and I think that the only 2 things which ground me are my wonderful husband and my writing.

I hope you feel better soon.

~ healing hugs

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Dark Angel
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since 1999-08-04

Posts 10095

24 posted 2002-06-11 05:17 PM

Wow, I'll be looking out for more of you

greatly enjoyed.

ethome
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since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

25 posted 2002-06-11 05:25 PM

Tiers....This is sadly beautiful.....Oh man just a real good write!!

Tiersdin
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since 2000-11-17

Posts 2364
east coast

26 posted 2002-06-11 08:49 PM

Lyra, thank you for that. It does help when there are ways to express the pain in order to purge it from one's soul. I find such a release not only through poetry, but creating my own music, and through art.

Dark Angel, thank you... It's always good to hear that someone finds your work worth reading. I shall return the favor and read you as well.

Ethome, left you speechless have I? I must work on that! *chuckles* Thank you so much for your comment...

*hugs*
~R.T.

"I shall never bond again, as I have bonded with you..."

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

27 posted 2002-06-19 08:51 PM

(BIG HUGGGSSSSSSSS) Oh Tiersdin, this is so very sadly heartfelt, sweet friend, I'm sorry of the tears you feel inside but I am also so blessed to nhave you as a friend and that you are here and expressing yourself with poetry, for I always find it helps greatly and helps convince us we are never truly alone! (sad sigh) My thoughts are with you, sweet friend, God Bless You, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Tiersdin, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

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