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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines 
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I Believe I am my own worst enemy. At a time when need and desire are there, inside a mind wanting to feel arms embracing what is on my outside, I am alone, taking a backseat to all. It is I, who have control of me, they say. It is I that have to find the way, without help, find the trigger to remove what pains me so. I am allergic to this world, the one I am forced to live in, trapped inside a body, doubly confined, once by society and the other by my mind, paying for my sins, those I am not aware of included. Why me? I often ask...haven't I had enough? Isn't there a light somewhere out there that I can reach for, turn on and see a whole new world before me? It could be worse, I am always told. Look on the bright side, tomorrows another day, your turn will come, when one door closes another one opens. But I can't even find my keys half the time to open my own doors. And now I wonder sometimes why I even want to. Am I down, she asks herself? And she answers...which way is up? By now I have seemed to have forgotten, as I was never good with directions, ask anyone who knows me. I have nothing but pity for myself, because I can't grasp, can barely hold onto what makes me happy, the darkness always following me now, the quiet stepping into my shadows. I hear the birds singing for someone else this morning, the rain having ceased, at least temporarily. Time drags on while I am awake, and slips by unnoticed when I close my eyes and another day and another day and another.... are all that I have to look forward to and still no change. I am tired, I am lonely, words no longer can raise me. Soon, I will be another year older, having lost three in feel but I am still here, still trying to believe, still wanting what I can't have, still believing my life is unfinished, but wondering how I can go on... as I sit here alone in the tranquility of my tears. "Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less." |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Whoa! What a sad but oh so powerful write! I hate to see you so down my poet friend. The writing in this is really a cascade of feelings from the heart. An outpouring! Keep believing because I believe in you!! It will happen when you least expect it! |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Maureen, You are an Island to yourself, but if you weren't there how could a swimmer save himself. Thank God for Islands.  PS powerful write. |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Maureen darling girl this is exquisite writing, your pen is perfectly poetical and I really do love it. The line and flow of this is excellent. A powerful piece of writing from you darling girl There is always hope darling girl truly. In this write you’ve revealed much of your soul’s pain and expressed yourself beautifully I love this utterly utterly This really is excellent writing darling boy I love it utterly    Love and warm stuff As always Mushy Breathe through the heat of our desire |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
A powerful piece of writing here Maureen! ~Hugs~ ~Somewhere in my heart I'm always |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Maureen, Loved the last line about the tranquility of tears, but don't be giving up or giving in. I make no platitudes but say only if you can get beyond the weariness it's worth it. Keth Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
This is so sad. I often feel this way myself. Thank you for sharing it. |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Goodness M... This is both an awesome and extremely sad poem of many emotions... Been there...maybe on a slightly different path, but...been there... Only you can make your path wide and well lighted or dark and winding... I assure you of this... you have the right tools to make that road lighted and wide.. Hugs.. Barry |
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