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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

0 posted 2002-07-17 04:10 AM

here I sit again
a temper in a tight throat
just waiting to burst through
and send too many angry words flying

sarcasm seems to stick with a person
even after its source
has long swam across an ocean of ignore
and there is only one way to keep the calm
and that is to walk away

I'm in too many hazes at once
and yours didn't aid what was supposed to be my heart
healing in the hands of the midnight I usually find solace in
so
SLEEP
dream
but don't reach back out for me
when anger still washes back up like a bad lunch
needing to find its way back out of a body that rejected it.

Understand
that this isn't hate
its a mere momentary uncurable anger
that pulls through me with the force
of a hurricane wind..
and this wind
smashes my small boat against rocks
slippery and yet sharply whittled by waves
dunking me again and again in salt liquid emotion
as if I were some angry sea god's morning doughnut
Someone
anyone but you right now
please rescue me from this withering
that crosses my soul
every
time
you
don't
think
before
speaking
AND STOP BREAKING MY HEART WITH YOUR TONE!

and then the mending comes
usually in the reluctance my temper leaves with
and I bow to forgiveness because I can
Its easy when I love you more than I'm angry at you.
Its easy when I love you comes even after the storm that strikes all my tender spots.

so when I still snap lightly
remember that I will soften
in time
sometimes it will take hours
moments or minutes
seconds

just
~~please~~
stop breaking my heart with your tone
its hard to catch my breath after the crash that I forbid myself to make too much noise in.

I will not bend to the cowardice of a silent judgement.

cherrypoptart
Member

since 2002-06-09

Posts 109
state of wordthiness

1 posted 2002-07-17 04:37 AM

I really enjoyed this writing......

These words are well expressed...

"Understand
that this isn't hate
its a mere momentary uncurable anger
that pulls through me with the force
of a hurricane wind..
and this wind
smashes my small boat against rocks
slippery and yet sharply whittled by waves
dunking me again and again in salt liquid emotion
as if I were some angry sea god's morning doughnut

1slick_lady
Member Ascendant

since 2000-12-22

Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace

2 posted 2002-07-17 05:28 AM

way too many lines to say which i liked best...so i'll say...damn girl...you CAN write !!! helen

Joe Lamando
Member

since 2001-11-20

Posts 124
Massachusetts,USA

3 posted 2002-07-17 06:24 AM

Well put!
More than self analysis.
It rings true for most eveyone,
unfortunately!
And you've helped us
by expressing it so well.
Thanks,
Joe Lamando

EagleOne
Member Elite

since 2000-03-07

Posts 2829
Between a laugh and a tear...

4 posted 2002-07-17 06:36 AM

"a temper in a tight throat" , I really love that line, well done!

Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets. ~Arthur Miller

Sven

Member Laureate

since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

5 posted 2002-07-17 05:17 PM

I've always found it amazing how you can reach the heart with a word. . . and how you can find love. . . even among anger. . .

powerfully done. . . yes. . . very much so. . .