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Madame Chipmunk
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0 posted 2002-07-08 12:41 PM

~Tears of Emptiness~

today is the second anniversary of Eric's death

I still taste the bitter truth of his death
something of his soul still lingers in the early hours
I remember his childhood
gifted to me...
this dark eyed innocence

he rummages through the rooms of my brain
dusting off the cobwebs of time
so that I may once again see him clearly

the toddler...who too soon grew to manhood
boldly, pushing aside the rules of society
brashly, stomping on tradition
so that his own freedom could be lived
his brilliance...a beacon to light his way

and now, as I place the flowers of love
upon his grave
the pain, once again becomes fresh
for this gifted child-man
his dark eyes, now shuttered
the circuits of his brilliance, severed
his light, once so luminous
no longer bathes his handsome face

my body trembles
with the tears
no mother should ever have to shed
the tears of emptiness
~

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Sunshine

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1 posted 2002-07-08 12:56 PM

Some people do not deal with their
losses so graciously, but you, my
dear, I applaud, for without these,
we would never be able to share
your pain with you.

Hugging you with motherly arms...

the_loner_23
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2 posted 2002-07-08 01:00 PM

Very sad. But swesome poem.

Cold hands means a warm heart

Enchantress
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Canada eh.

3 posted 2002-07-08 01:04 PM

Madame Chipmunk
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4 posted 2002-07-08 04:30 PM

Thanks so much, Karilea....
I'm really needing those motherly arms right about now too...

~ warm hugs back at you

Lyra

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Madame Chipmunk
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5 posted 2002-07-08 04:31 PM

Thanks so much, Julie...I'm glad you enjoyed it.

~ teary hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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6 posted 2002-07-08 04:35 PM

Thanks for crying with me, Nancy

~hugs and tears

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Kethry
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7 posted 2002-07-08 05:10 PM

Oh Lyra!

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

NewEnglandlazurlu
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8 posted 2002-07-08 05:13 PM

There is nothing worse than a child dying before a parent. It is not the natural order of life and brings such sorrow. I am so sorry for your loss. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Special hugs for you this day...Marti

" My wrinkles are badges of courage and reveal that I am a Mother."

SmartChick
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On A Journey To The Unknown

9 posted 2002-07-08 05:15 PM

Oh Lyra! I am so sorry this happened to you.

I send you

. I hope this will help in some way.

Madame Chipmunk
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10 posted 2002-07-08 05:26 PM

Thanks so much, Keth...
I feel your friendship from all the way across the world and from under it too.

~ big hugs of friendship

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Seymour Tabin
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11 posted 2002-07-08 05:30 PM

Lyra,
You have touched so much
And so much has touched you.

Madame Chipmunk
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12 posted 2002-07-08 05:33 PM

Thanks so much for those thoughts, Marti...
I need them more than you know. I am also waiting for the phone call with the results of my last biopsy right now....
so today is a double whammy for me.
We went out and did some errands and it turns out that my urologist called at 2 PM...and she doesn't usually call until late in the day when she's finished with all of her surgeries. So now we are anxiously awaiting her call back, and I don't want to go to the cemetary until I hear from her first because I don't want to miss her again or I will be awake all night tonight...
I am very nervous right now because I keep thinking that if the results were good, she could have left that on the answering machine and she didn't.

~ hugs from a nervous mom in mourning

Lyra

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Mistletoe Angel

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13 posted 2002-07-08 05:36 PM

(sends many angels to guide you today)

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

Madame Chipmunk
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14 posted 2002-07-08 05:37 PM

Thanks so much for your hugs, Sue...
they help immensely...
I'm also still waiting for my urologist to call with the results of my last biopsy and I'm very nervous about that...
We went out for a while and I can't believe that she called at 2 PM....She never calls during the day...
except of course, if we go out.

~ hugging you back

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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15 posted 2002-07-08 05:39 PM

Thanks so much, Sy...
Sometimes I wish I didn't know as much as I do about some things in life.

~ teary hugs

Lyra

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Madame Chipmunk
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16 posted 2002-07-08 05:41 PM

Thanks so much for those angels, Noah...
I think they are doing double duty today...or at least, I hope they are.

~ angel hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

JamesMichael
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17 posted 2002-07-08 06:06 PM

Beautiful words of love and loss you have shared...soft hugs for you Lyra...James

Nan

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18 posted 2002-07-08 06:33 PM

God gave to us His Cherubim
To bless our trek on mortal shore.
A golden heart and smiling face
Bestowed on us eternal grace.
An angel now at heaven's door ~
Bequeathed to Him our Seraphim.

God Bless, Lyra

Madame Chipmunk
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19 posted 2002-07-08 06:40 PM

Thank you so much for that lovely blessing, Nan...

~ may the angels hug you tight

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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20 posted 2002-07-08 06:52 PM

Thanks so much for those hugs, James...
they really help...more than you know.

~ thank you hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

vandana

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21 posted 2002-07-08 07:12 PM

sad,but enjoy

Madame Chipmunk
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22 posted 2002-07-08 07:37 PM

Thanks so much for stopping by to read my poem, Vandana...

~ lots of hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Mysteria

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23 posted 2002-07-08 09:55 PM

What a beautiful Mother's cry to be heard by everyone who gets a chance to read it Lyra. He will be madly dusting off the cobwebs today, and that is what these anniversaries are for, getting in touch with your feelings, and the love felt. My heart is with you today on "two counts" and may you be guided on both. Huge hugs to you.

mycafe
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24 posted 2002-07-08 10:04 PM

I am deeply touched by this beautiful write of yours, Lyra. Such intimate memories do make one relive the happiness and sorrows of the past, but you've moved on so fine and with so much strength.

*comforting hug*

~mycafe

Keep counting your blessings

powerofthysword
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25 posted 2002-07-08 10:11 PM

I have no children of my own, so I can't
possibly imagine what you must be going
through. Your wonderful poem gave me insight
as to how wonderfully your son affected
your life, it seems you are a very caring
and loving person too. Paul

Staring into the sun just makes you blind to what beauty actually exists in the sky.

Poet deVine

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26 posted 2002-07-08 10:16 PM

Your tears are not empty. They are filled with love....

Suetang
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27 posted 2002-07-08 10:17 PM

Hello Lyra

I cried when I read your words of love for your son. How very precious your memories must now be. Sending a big hug your way across the miles.

Take care......Sue

I am in motion
I am blue
Love is an ocean
I'm anchored in you
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Madame Chipmunk
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28 posted 2002-07-08 10:35 PM

Sharon...thanks so much for sending me your heart, all the way from Vancouver.
I can't believe I still haven't heard from Dr. Goodnews and it is 10:30 PM.
I figure that she either thinks its not all that important or its so important that she needs lots of time to talk to me and Mondays are usually a very busy surgery day for her.
In either case, I am not going to spend tomorrow sitting around and waiting for her call. I have a lot of things to do tomorrow, and if she can't catch me...then she will just have to send me an email or leave me a message. David thinks she wants to spend a lot of time talking me into having that miserable surgery....In that case, I just don't need to be here to get that call....right?

~ hugs to you from deep in my heart...
all the way from Kalamazoo to Vancouver

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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29 posted 2002-07-08 10:36 PM

Thanks so much, Marie...
I am so touched by your reply and by some of the others...
You are the ones who are helping me to keep going...and of course, my wonderful husband...David.

~ warm hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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30 posted 2002-07-08 10:39 PM

Thank you so much for reading my poem, Paul and also for taking the time to reply to it.
My son was a very special person...
he was actually a very long story and I have written many poems about him.
He was the only person ever to be admitted to the University of Michigan Medical School without an actual high school diploma.
He got kicked out of high school and ended up getting a GED.
I miss him terribly.

~ glistening wet tears

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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31 posted 2002-07-08 10:40 PM

PDV, thanks for that very sweet and wise comment.

~ many warm hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
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32 posted 2002-07-08 10:41 PM

Thanks so much, Sue...for those Aussie hugs.
I need all of the hugs I can get tonight.

~ lots of warm Michigan hugs

Lyra

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"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Duncan
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33 posted 2002-07-09 01:03 AM

Thank you for sharing this, Lyra. Damn doctor...guess it's a bit late to expect a call, huh? lol

...and so it begins

Greeneyes

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34 posted 2002-07-09 01:13 AM

Lyra~

you are so touching....I cried when i read this....what a tender heart you have shown.....Peace to you....much love toooo

Lauren~

The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind pretend I am weightless and in this moment I am happy

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