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staybellmined
Junior Member

since 2001-07-29

Posts 21
insanity, usa (killeen,tx)

0 posted 2002-04-21 04:20 PM

sometimes I sit here in silence
staring at the monitor and wondering
blankly thinking and looking at everything nothing
unknown answers and hidden ideas
and the silence is almost too much to bear
alone is what I seem to be in the world I share
and I don't know what to do
about the things that now are here
and I don't know what to say to you
to make you know that I still care
and it's the little things that pull and twist
the little things that just persist
that I accept and leave alone
but the things that matter so much now
are the ones I try to ignore
and I know I really shouldn't
I should pay more attention
but I just can't feel like I'm stuck in transition
and the clutch won't drop and get in gear
so I'm grinding away in love and fear
scared that I'm doing what shouldn't be done
hoping it works and won't ruin us all
and all you seem to want to say
is I'm the one getting in the way
and I just don't know what to do anymore
we've been put in a spot behind the door
and I'm reaching as fast as you
I want to be first as much as you
so perhaps I'll just sit back and do nothing
I honestly don't know what else to do
do a little from time to time
add a few words to complete a rhyme
and sit there and say you did a good job
it won't really affect me
at least I think
I'll just fix all the things
you pust past the brink
and smile when it's said and done
cause that's the way this battle's won

if it bleeds seven days and doesn't die, then it's something you should be happy to get.

Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

1 posted 2002-04-22 11:59 PM

You know, if I'm reading this correctly, I have had these same feelings. Seems like when something is just beginning its hard to realize exactly where to get started. I enjoyed this, and I hope I didn't mix up the message.

How grave is my condition, for I cannot find the words to say, I need you so.
~Sarah MacLachlan~

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

2 posted 2002-04-23 12:27 PM

shame on me for not replying...I read this so many times!!! I adore the title, and the words echo the darkness. I will look for more from you.

KimW
Member

since 2000-03-04

Posts 268
Medford, Oregon, USA

3 posted 2002-04-23 01:06 AM

Oh how I also relate to this on many levels.
I hope that this is a short-term feeling.

This reader felt the impact.

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

4 posted 2002-04-23 01:59 AM

"I should pay more attention
but I just can't feel like I'm stuck in transition
and the clutch won't drop and get in gear
so I'm grinding away in love and fear"

Intense. I like the way this one puts the reader into overdrive, and almost carries you away, wondering if there will be a 'braking' point.

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