Love Shouldn't Hurt This Much

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ambermize
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since 2001-04-21

Posts 157
California

0 posted 2002-05-08 02:31 AM

I tried to conceal the hurt I felt,
In another mans temptation,
I wanted to lose myself agian,
Before I found that old sensation.

The one that leaves me crying,
Everytime I hear your voice,
That guilts my heart for leaving,
Even though I had no choice.

I wanted to taste a sweetness,
That I never found in you,
To bury it deep inside me,
Like you taught me to.

I thought he could make me beautiful,
Becuase I couldnt possibly love myself,
I looked to him for the security,
I always thought I should have felt.

I gave myself so willingly,
Thinking that was my worth,
Becuase I let you bring me down,
And let you know how bad it hurt.

I know my son is beautiful,
He's my life and my soul,
But somehow you look past him,
As if you'de never known.

That his smile can bring a feeling,
That sets my mind at ease,
An innocent love he holds inside,
That is so amazing to me.

I havent healed the way I should,
Time has stopped somewhere,
He wasnt a way out for me,
But a distraction that would care.

Clinging isnt happiness,
Newness isnt love,
Challenges arent the end of me,
Love never should have hurt this much.

Sunshine

Administrator

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

1 posted 2002-05-08 06:46 AM

Love should never hurt, but it is the great equalizer, just knowing that those who hurt us will most often go through what they did to us by someone else's hand...certainly doesn't make it right, but it happens, and if we are very fortunate, we learn from it!

Keep writing!

catalinamoon

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-03

Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone

2 posted 2002-05-08 09:01 AM

You are so right, it shouldn't hurt this much. You will make it, stronger on the other side. But it hurts getting there.
Take care.
Sandra

Dulcinea
Senior Member

since 2001-07-22

Posts 774
IN

3 posted 2002-05-08 10:34 AM

No, love should never hurt like that! Pity there is no comfort in that truism...hoping you find the strength to discover love without pain.

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

4 posted 2002-05-08 11:48 AM

"Clinging isnt happiness,
Newness isnt love,
Challenges arent the end of me,
Love never should have hurt this much."

(big hugggsssssss) Oh Amber, you are right, love should never be this bad and should never hurt this much, and it should always be something that can endure each day and feel new every time you watch the sunrise and sunset as if you're falling in love all over again yet its history is in the making! (sigh) I pray soon you will find a new love that doesn't involve pain like this, sweet friend, my thoughts are with you, God Bless You, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Amber, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

devina
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since 1999-10-28

Posts 3539
Cali

5 posted 2002-05-08 01:43 PM

HEY YOU!!! Sneaking back in me lil sis...I've missed you something terrible...

Your words here tell me more than you've said in the past few days (beautifully written) and you had to make me cry!!! BRAT!!

You KNOW you are beautiful and you will get through this (even if I have to steal you away)you deserve so much more and I promise you that you'll get it eventually...

Give my little baby hugs and kisses from his auntie!!!

Miss you guys!!
Tanya

Open arms can be the most fragile in the world...

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

6 posted 2002-05-08 04:33 PM

Good writing...no it shouldn't...but sometimes they seem to go together...James

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

7 posted 2002-05-08 09:41 PM

SweetAmber~
Honey, it's soooooooo good to see you again~

'I know my son is beautiful,
He's my life and my soul'

That his smile can bring a feeling,
That sets my mind at ease,
An innocent love he holds inside,
That is so amazing to me.'

To know that amazing love of a child makes all others pale in comparison dear lady~

Love you~
*Hugs*
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
[email protected]

ambermize
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 157
California

8 posted 2002-05-08 10:44 PM

Thanks so much, so nice to back here agian. Seems like I return here time and agian for comfort from friends and I thank you.

And to my sister, figured you would find me out, not as sneaky as I thought.... Lol!

devina
Member Elite

since 1999-10-28

Posts 3539
Cali

9 posted 2002-05-09 01:43 PM

CHEESE BALL ANYONE????

k...sorry...I couldn't resist!!!

Love you!!!
Tanya

Open arms can be the most fragile in the world...

ambermize
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 157
California

10 posted 2002-05-17 04:30 PM

Thanks so much for everyone, once agian i love being back here. Going on four years now. I have shared so many of my emotions here, first love, new love, the pain of love, the joy of birth, and the bitter pain of letting go. Guess I have grown up here huh...to some it up! Thanks agian so much

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