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My Heart Hurts
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My Heart Hurts |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA 
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It has been almost six years now since you died You said you loved me and I really thought you may have ........sometimes The times when you weren't speaking words that cut through my heart And the times you weren't slapping or gently pushing me across the room or while riding down the road hollering and screaming at me because I just happened to look out the window or did some other little thing you didn't like And I thought that you just might mean it when you said that you loved me until you would get insanely jealous and accuse me of all the things your other women were actually doing with you But then you would be so sorry you said And you would cry and beg me to be patient with you You would tell me that you were like you were because of the way you were abused as a child And you would beg me not to leave Then after you died I found out some unspeakable things that you did and now I know..... You could have never loved me in all those years that we were married If you had how could you have done the horrible things that you did? |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Ethel - I know this - I do - and you know deep down he did love you - in his way - in his own self-contempt - but still no excuse - and you - that feeling - that deep seated angst coupled with memory - it just doesnt seem to drift away . . . this touched me deep - beautiful writing my friend - and bless your heart . . . xxoo |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
This touches deeply, garysgirl. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
This reminded me of some times in my past...when I was in a situation where I told a woman I loved her and my actions didn't support my words...in truth if I truly did love her I would never have treated her as if I did...in truth I wanted to love her but I didn't have the ability at that time...but I did want to love her...sad that I could never get my act together...I could never find the connection to my heart...for she deserved to be loved...and you as well...James |
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luvlorn322 Junior Member
since 2002-10-28
Posts 43 |
that was heartbreaking, but well captured, thanks for sharing |
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Ericc Member Elite
since 2003-01-31
Posts 4178 |
So very poignant. Eric |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Thank you all very much. This one hurt to write. There's so much more I want to get out of my heart. Maybe one day I can write about it. Heart Hugs, Ethel |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Thanks for feeling comfortable enough to purge Ethel |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
This reminds me of when you opened a post in the lounge about feeling guilty that you are getting married again. Listen, if someone is insencere, you are not doing anything wrong by doing what is right for you. You have given us all the gift of beautifull poetry. And there are plenty out there who love you. Never be normal! |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Ethel, this is so very heartaching, dearest friend, I send many angel hugs out to you and don't know what to say other than know we are all here for you and we love you so much! (wipes tears) You have our full support, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Ethel, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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bklynboy Senior Member
since 2002-12-15
Posts 660florida |
Reading this was like being on a rollercoaster. I didnt know which way it was going....very interesting and thought provoking. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
The times when you weren't speaking words that cut through my heart And the times you weren't slapping or gently pushing me across the room or while riding down the road hollering and screaming at me because I just happened to look out the window or did some other little thing you didn't like ~*~ Now I know... now i know.... [This message has been edited by Sunshine (04-04-2003 09:50 PM).] |
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