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nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

0 posted 2003-03-12 10:39 PM

Of Loving You

I am here even when I say I am not.
I am unconditional to myself
but dodge my biggest fear,
of loving you.
I am passionate to your touch,
a collector of memories, dusting cobwebs
from the corners, polishing to bring out the richness,
never wanting to let you go.

I saved a rose from that day. It rests alone,
dried in the vase, for me to see,
occasionally losing a leaf
when I am careless in handling it.
The red has deepened to a wine color,
never having opened.
Like me, if it had, each petal
would have dropped by now,
and all I would have left is the memory.

My eyes tour my body and wonder
what magic there is, that can make warmth
out of the emptiness I carry inside.
Whispers rise until all I hear is your voice,
and the longing for it to speak my name.
I wonder whether I should have you
watching over me each night, waking to your eyes
each morning next to me, on the nightstand.

When I was young, I fell in love, true love,
only once and held it in me for a lifetime.
I felt obligated until my arms
felt the heaviness of loss...and I finally let go.
I have crawled through the maze of pains
and ridden the highs and lows stopping
only for you, pausing to your feel,
warmed by your touch.

I close my eyes to you and sleep in comfort,
a bit frayed around the edges, tortured by time
but willing to walk in the dark among the shadows
that haunt your reflection along with mine.
In an imperfect world, I can still love if allowed.
I can hold back my feelings, or I can share
in the little things that bring me joy.
I can erase the old and rewrite my life
so that the changes become me.
I can fill the cracks, replace the missing pieces
with my moments of you. You led me to believe again,
scrawled your words across my heart
and brushed me in your softness,
surrendering me to each kiss.

I ask nothing of you except to let me love you,
in my own way, unconditionally
and take you to my sleep, each night
under cover of darkness into my dreams,
to journey with me until the light of day.

M

"Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
(Will Moss)

[This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (03-12-2003 10:44 PM).]

the_loner_23
Member Ascendant

since 2002-06-08

Posts 5479
Jacksonville, Florida, USA

1 posted 2003-03-12 10:43 PM

This is so beautiful. But parts of it was sad. I like the combination of the 2. Beautifully written my friend.

Cold hands means a warm heart

Suetang
Member Ascendant

since 2001-03-07

Posts 5187
Melbourne, Australia

2 posted 2003-03-12 10:51 PM

Hello Maureen

This was an absolutely brilliant write. I hope all is well with you.

Take care.......Sue

I am in motion
I am blue
Love is an ocean
I'm anchored in you
- Shawn Mullins

HopeS
Member Elite

since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

3 posted 2003-03-12 11:10 PM

This was truly heartfelt and touching
the depths of emotions came through

Hope

Ringo

Member Elite

since 2003-02-20

Posts 3684
Saluting with misty eyes

4 posted 2003-03-12 11:31 PM

Such thoughts of love. A very beautiful and touching poem.

~You might say I'm a Dreamer, but I'm not the only one...
John Lennon

Ratleader

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since 2003-01-23

Posts 7026
Visiting Earth on a Guest Pass

5 posted 2003-03-12 11:52 PM

I know that color. I had a rose like that, and also a white orchid. One day I looked at the two of them, and just rejected what they were trying to tell me -- I crushed them to smithereens, carried the shards out to the middle of the street and dumped them there, where passing cars would do the rest.

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BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

6 posted 2003-03-13 12:10 PM

Maureen~ This was such a beautiful collaboration filled with deep emotion.
I especially liked how you compared the rose petals to your love.

Hugs to you always~

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

7 posted 2003-03-13 03:01 PM

A nice collection of thoughts and feelings..James

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

8 posted 2003-03-13 08:00 PM

enjoyed this

Bill Charles
Member Patricius

since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

9 posted 2003-03-13 11:04 PM

nakdthoughts - you write with emotion and heart, one of your best writes in my opinion. But they are all good...

BC

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