Another Sadness Ramble (with apologies for the pity party)

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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

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Mobile, AL

0 posted 2002-02-26 10:06 PM

slipping again
into the arms of a frown.
I'm here
does anyone see me?
No..
not here..
not in these words
in this poetry
in this haven.
But does anyone see me
walking beside them
standing
smiling
just wanting acceptance sometimes.
You know what they say
about the quiet ones?
shhhh..
mustn't let the secret me out
for I will never overcome this lump in my confidence
when the crowd gathers
when the slaps on the back
and fun begins
I will always be the serious one
pondering in the corner
watching
and no one will ask me to dance again
because no one ever did.
I am the one everyone can't figure out
because my complexities aren't one sided.
I'm lonely in this crowd
no..
not in this haven
in these words
but in waking life
when strangers don't notice me
because I'm not the flirt
standing with arms around waists
singing and dancing with all the important people.
I'm slipping into a frown again
a mood of total resolve to be alone.
And I'm here wishing I could fall apart
but there are never any arms to do that in.
Does anyone see me?
no..
not in these words
this poetry that I seclude myself in
but when they walk by
nodding briefly
ignoring my tiny voice.
No
they only hear my voice
when my mouth is quiet
and my eyes stare boldly back
and even then.
I'm lonely in a moment
because they don't understand the expression there
and there is a laziness in humans today
to truly know each other
and I am one of the quiet voices
but shhh...
mustn't let that secret out.
They say the quiet ones are bad girls at heart
but who would ever chance to find out?

For all who watch.Dare you say hello? Come in and ask the questions that are on your mind, but spare me your judgement until you truly sipped of me.

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

1 posted 2002-02-26 10:12 PM

I will always be the serious one
pondering in the corner
watching
and no one will ask me to dance again
because no one ever did.
I am the one everyone can't figure out
because my complexities aren't one sided.
I'm lonely in this crowd

I was just like you, back when... You will succeed..You are a standout in any crowd..just be sure to get in one Jenn...*w

hugs
M

Mistletoe Angel

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since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

2 posted 2002-02-26 10:21 PM

(tears fall down my cheeks) My heart cries out to you, sweet friend, I too have suffered this setback so many times when I have tried to communicate to others my own age and I only get abused or ignored! (big hugggssssss) My heart goes out to you, sweet friend, always follow your heart and you will find yourself standing in the crowds of those who truly do love you so much! (kiss on cheek) We all love you so much, sweet friend, my thoughts are with you! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Jenn, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

BluesSerenade
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since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

3 posted 2002-02-26 10:28 PM

Try to dust off your worries
and don't let life get the best of you.
I'm going to date myself here,
but it doesn't change all that much over the years.
And life is too short not to go on!

But I can most definitely relate to your poem.
Pity party or not,
I'll invite you to mine next time.

[This message has been edited by BluesSerenade (02-26-2002 10:29 PM).]

Auguste

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since 2000-02-16

Posts 3953
By the sea

4 posted 2002-02-26 10:29 PM

This is very sad and I just hope it's about some character in a poem and not about yourself. I've known many people just like you describe. This is very thought -provoking, as is most of your work. Good writing!

Michael

Michael Auguste~
There is more depth to the heart than the mind can comprehend and it only has boundaries when we choose to fence it in.

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2002-02-26 11:19 PM

I happen to know for a fact that people like all different types of personalities...and you don't have to be the center of attention to be noticed...James

RosePetal

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since 2001-08-26

Posts 2985
South Florida

6 posted 2002-02-27 12:56 PM

Hey Jen,

You need some big hugs from you dear buddy RosePetal ((((HUGGGSSSSSS)))
You are the best at these ramblings as you call them, but I call them outpourings of the soul! Did I mention I Love your new pic?

peaches73533
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since 2001-11-04

Posts 981
OK, USA

7 posted 2002-02-27 01:01 AM

I felt this way alot when I was younger.I hope that if this is about you, that you soon will begin to feel different.I found out the hard way you don't have to be the center of attention to be noticed.A sad but very powerful write.
Peaches

Cpat Hair

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since 2001-06-05

Posts 11793

8 posted 2002-02-27 08:14 AM

they only hear my voice
when my mouth is quiet
and my eyes stare boldly back
and even then.
I'm lonely in a moment
because they don't understand the expression there
and there is a laziness in humans today
to truly know each other
and I am one of the quiet voices
but shhh...
mustn't let that secret out.
They say the quiet ones are bad girls at heart
but who would ever chance to find out?

A powerful ending to a well written piece... perhaps because I can relate to it in many ways it tells much of what I have felt inside many many times...

Nan

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-20

Posts 21191
Cape Cod Massachusetts USA

9 posted 2002-02-27 08:16 AM

... BIG HUGS...

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

10 posted 2002-02-27 08:21 AM

Temptress,
loved these words
"but shhh...
mustn't let that secret out.
They say the quiet ones are bad girls at heart
but who would ever chance to find out?"

But I don't know how how true they are.
Keth

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Moonlight Romeo

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since 2001-09-10

Posts 982
The heart of you

11 posted 2002-02-27 10:37 AM

I would say that there is much more of you that is heard than you know.

Thank you.

What light through yon window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

12 posted 2002-02-27 04:25 PM

quote:
I am the one everyone can't figure out
because my complexities aren't one sided.

I thought that was me. . .

well done here. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

strbbux
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since 2001-12-19

Posts 3859

13 posted 2002-02-27 06:57 PM

You are me Temptress. I was always "too quiet" and they say that "still waters run deep" and I truly believe that, This was a wonderful expression of how you feel. I wrote one about this subject, but it doesn't even come close, this is wonderful. floria

Floria

"Alas for those that never sing,
But die with all their music in them"
(Oliver Wendell Holmes)

Denise

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14 posted 2002-02-27 07:30 PM

Being one of those quiet ones myself who usually doesn't seem to fit in very well anywhere, I can totally relate, Jenn. Very well expressed. I also like to think of us as the "thinkers" of the world, not the "bad" ones. I've heard both and I much prefer "thinkers"! Great big (((HUGS)))

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