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nakdthoughts
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0 posted 2003-06-18 10:41 AM



Why Exist

I have
second thoughts that
scream their hold, seeping in
to every fiber of being
asking...
.
.
.
I have
tear to tears cling
their dryness stiffening
my face patterned by the aching
inside

I have
the emptiness
walking silent hallways
in a mind filled with "once upons"
lost dreams

I have
no escaping
back to back illusions
mirrored two-fold, in control of
what is



"Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
(Will Moss)

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Midnitesun
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1 posted 2003-06-18 02:58 PM


there is such a sad feeling to this, M
why not? is my only reply at the moment,
and I know that's a totally lame reply

Local Parasite
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2 posted 2003-06-18 03:47 PM


Nothing like a little existential angst to fill your quill, hm?

Well, M, I'm going to do what I do sometimes and comment more on the subject matter of the poem than the technical aspect.  If all there are are back-to-back illusions, how can you identify them as illusions?  And if they're all that you have, then what about an "illusion" makes it a bad thing?  It could very well be that we're all just a mind in a mix of senses that play a cruel joke of existence on us... but I say that all we can do is observe patterns in our existence and be faithful to those...

You know what makes you happy... you know what to do to incite some reaction in these illusions... that's why exist -- if you can't believe in anyone but yourself, then exist for yourself.

Did that make any sense at all?  I'm trying, I swear...

Anyhow... thanks for sharing these thoughts with us.  By writing a poem and giving it to the world, I think you've answered your own question, haven't you?

Parasite

Poets are the unacknowledged legislators of the world.
~Percy Bysshe Shelley

nakdthoughts
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3 posted 2003-06-18 07:52 PM


Midnitesun, a sad feeling...yes that's how I was at the start of today.

I dislike arguing, I dislike being made to feel the enemy and I think there has just been so much rain and dreariness that it has become hard to overcome.

Thank you for responding. I am probably not going to be posting in open for awhile except for responses and I had promised myself to not write at all..but sometimes the words have to come out. Today was such a day.

nakdthoughts
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4 posted 2003-06-18 08:00 PM


LP, well I was sort of thinking back to back as in a mirror, (the Alicethruglass part of me)
Sometimes it is bad (believe me) to look into one and see the face staring back. Obviously I see more than others would, and many times I dislike what I see...I see myself letting the world get to me, allowing it to lower myself to a harshness that takes its toll on me.

Even when I hold back, my thoughts will wear me down until I can't function...so I do this and do that and jump around to do what makes me feel good. It all comes out in the wash, but I would rather be and feel organized.

I know you are trying and I appreciate that more than I can tell you. I expected this to hit the bottom. I usually am told by others in a response to a poem of sad feelings that they like when I write happy. But I write how I feel and  happy was not in my vocabulary this day.


I weeded out my feelings this afternoon and  my garden and treated two children to ice cream and snowballs...their faces made me feel happy...as did your words tonight.
Thank you
Maureen

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5 posted 2003-06-19 09:45 AM


M...
I'm curious why you would tell yourself you were not going to write and why you would not be posting in open... it seems a shame to me that the words you would write not be written and then if written not shared...

I understand the not wanting to write..all too well I understand that, yet I know the words won't be denied. Whether the images and feelings are of happiness or the depression we sometimes feel, or even of sadness for loss we can never regain..or loss for what we never had.. all have value and a place. While I would rather see your day smile on you, I know when I have said something or tried to brighten your day in some way, it was not because you wrote of what you feel, but that you felt what you wrote...and sometimes it is nice to know, when we feel that way..that someone heard, glanced your way..and took a moment to acknowledge and sympathize..

Illusions... you know, perhaps we are all that... illusionary...


nakdthoughts
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6 posted 2003-06-19 07:56 PM


perhaps we are, Ron...just illusions in poetry.

For now I just want to post somewhere peacefully. "Sometimes less is more"

thank you for your words
M

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