Open Poetry #17 |
The hurt inside me |
Nikolette Sadness
since 2000-07-29
Posts 337port richey fl. |
its taken me almost a year to get to this point... ~The hurt inside me~ after everything i went through, i finally realize how horribly inhumane it all was. not because of you, i was the one hurting myself. you were merely a thought, a cry, a pang of anger. you were never the one hurting me, only a figment of my oh so vivid imagination. i was trapped there, thinking it was reality. but now i know, that it was all some horrid nightmare. you never even existed. only in a dream that kept repeating. only in my tears, the shine of the blade, only in false memories, that never went away. i'm awake now, and i'm not alone anymore. i have my life back, its no longer yours. i'm so relieved, its all off my chest. so i'll put those dreams away now, and lay old pain to rest... Nikolette Sadness i was once in love and happy...but you can call me Sadness. |
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Balladeer
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
I'm glad, Nikolette...welcome back |
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Tracey Member Elite
since 2001-08-29
Posts 2808where insanity meets breeding |
So glad you got to the point of being able to put your pain behind you. What an exhilerating release that must be. You have written it well If she who dies with the most toys wins, then can I have some toy boys please? |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
This is good writing...always nice to hear when a special day finally arrives...James |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Nice to meet you again, Nikolette. It's good to leave pain in the dust. |
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peaches73533 Senior Member
since 2001-11-04
Posts 981OK, USA |
Glad you could leave this pain behind you.I will rejoice in the day when I can put my pain behind me.Nice write. peaches |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Good for you, Nik. Happy to see you here, and feeling better. Sandra |
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Elizabeth
Moderator
Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
Good for you! You're doing well to get to that point. Welcome back home. God bless America, my home sweet home. |
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Nikolette Sadness
since 2000-07-29
Posts 337port richey fl. |
thank you all for your replies..its good to be home...i just hope jesse sees this...he needs to know that i am finally ready to let him in...i'm not afraid to love anymore... and i think...hope...i'll be back for good now.... yours, Nik i was once in love and happy...but you can call me Sadness. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Nik, sometimes we learn more about ourselves this way. This is full of insight, and self examination. Great job on this one! |
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Opeth Senior Member
since 2001-12-13
Posts 1543The Ravines |
Wrought with heartfelt angst and despair, your words became a part of me. |
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