Here's hoping you all are having the merriest of holiday seasons. This is a repost from last year this time just to let you all know I'm thinking of you and miss you dearly. It's hard to believe a year has passsed since this moment that I began to leave the past behind and find the future. It's been a long road my dear friends, thanks for helping to guide my way.
Much love,
Ruth


Of Christmas Past, Present, and Future


It’s Christmas

and we celebrate the day

laying in each other’s arms,

legs intertwined, talking

about Christmas’ to come;

while I try to forget

Christmas’ past.


The memories of shouted words

and hands raised in anger

are now only a dull ache

where once the wounds seeped

with bitterness.


He wipes away a tear

that has found its way

from my brimming eyes

to land in a puddle upon his cheek

and pulls me closer

to kiss away the drops before they fall.


Somehow, he instinctively knows

where my mind is,

although he’s only shared those memories

through my words.

“Shhh..,” he whispers,

“let’s think about the future.”


But in the present,

safe within his arms,

I let the tears fall;

washing away the pain

and think of this Christmas

as a time of healing.