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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Sometimes life is funny We never really know Where it will lead us next Sometimes we are up Other times we are down Sometimes I wear a smile Other times I just frown No one really knows How I feel deep inside I've been numbed to the bone As I hide my wounded feelings From those who know me best Trying one more time To pass this wretched test I often ask myself Where it all will lead If there is some purpose What in the world could it be I have never come near The answers that I seek I've tried and tried for years I guess I'll never know The reason for the trials Still I try to persevere Although it seems futile I have buried my heart Hoping and forever praying It won't just fall apart All writing comes |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Never bury your heart as long as it is still beating. Let it beat and lift your head up high, believe in yourself and keep moving. I don't offer empty words. I'm speaking from experience. If I buried my heart a long time ago I would have missed out on an awful lot. I've been down so many times I almost forgot how to get back up but you know what? I'm still here and so are you. I know, I know that most people reveal a lot about themselves in their poetry. Why? Because it all has to go somewhere. anger, frustration, hurt, disappointment, regret and what we think as failure. Half the time we didn't fail at all. Everything is not your fault, isn't anyone's entire fault. my 2 cents  Kathleen |
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Startime Member Ascendant
since 2000-10-03
Posts 5918Canada |
You know for many years I used to wonder why I was experiencing so much and now today as I look back I see that because of my experiences I have learned to be more loving and compassionate towards others. You may never know the answer but I can tell you one thing. As you share your talent with us you are helping all who read your work. You may never know how many you touch either but touch them you do. I know because I have been touched deeply by your work. **hugs** Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams. |
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RosePetal 
since 2001-08-26
Posts 2985South Florida |
I know exactly what you mean. I always wonder what the reason is behind something happening but I guess some things are better left a mystery. Very Good Poem Jen! Love, RP |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Jen, sweet friend...i have connected with you and your lovely work since first coming to Passions...and this is one of many examples why. First off your write was just utterly beautiful, in a sad but understanding way. I know these feelings that you pen...can't say as I feel the same as you do (none of us do) but I can say I understand. You have a beautiful heart and your words show that brilliantly. Never give up, there is a reason for why we go through our trials and tribulations. It may be years yet to come before you know why, but your rainbow will be there. Take care of you sweetie. Amy "I could kiss you in the rain forever. Turn all of your pain to pleasure Fill up your days with sunlight, make the passion last every night" [This message has been edited by Aimster (edited 11-08-2001).] |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Jen... I have walked many a mile very similar to your own....I have asked a thousand times why? I have revisited so many moments that I wish I could forget. I have heard harsh words in my mind over and over. I have cried and suffered through inner pain that at one point I thought I could no longer endure. I finally started finding peace through hearing the words of others. Learning that I was not alone. That I, the human being was so alike so many others. That I was no different. I first had to learn to forgive myself. I also had to learn to forgive others. I have learned one very important thing. We were not given a book which told us what to do in our lives, relationships, work, etc. We often times learned by examples of our fathers, mothers....They learned from theirs. I have learned to forgive myself... Like you, I have learned that I have a talent of expression, of feelings. I am learning that my words also help others heal....I know yours do the same. I am pleased to share mine as you share yours. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Lone Wolf--Such an emotional pulling poem..I can only say that termoil carries many lessons, and you may not understand them now, but if you are open...they will come and you will be wiser. Hugs! |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
"I held you close so you could scream." This is a poem I posted here last month, that could have been written for you. The fact is, my very first post at Pips was supposed to have been a reply to a poem you wrote, but being a newbie idiot, I hit the new post button, saw this flapping folder staring at me, and Vickie was kind enough to email me and tell me how to post. Anyway, your words always touch my inner soul. |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
back to the top for you....others should read this I think Kathleen |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Ah! I like this LW. But you know that we are all given tests in life. How we handle the challenge is testimony to our strength. I don't think you could ever fail a test..you just make a decison and move on. Everything happens for a reason..you just have to find out why... |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
i know not the words to comfort but i guess, we all do the best we can...whether our actions are meaningful/significant is secondary because we have already been true to ourselves?? Hugs and kisses... |
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peaches73533 Senior Member
since 2001-11-04
Posts 981OK, USA |
As hard as you may want to, try not to hide for when we do it's us that hurts inside Keep writing I have hidden within myself for so long but now Im trying to take back the power that was once mine I am forgiving myself anf others in my life and it helps. Also seeing writings like this help alot,because it lets me know that I'm not alone in this world.So know that you are not alone. Peaches |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoy |
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EagleScorpion Senior Member
since 2000-03-08
Posts 1644Here, Now, Forever |
Hang in there, Lone Wolf..you are NOT alone |
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Greeneyes 
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
I have buried my heart Hoping and forever praying It won't just fall apart" its a every day battle, but with hope we prevail....peace lonewolf, hugs to you...fantastic write.... Greeneyes~ ***** I keep my ideals, because in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart. Anne Frank 09*12*01 [This message has been edited by Greeneyes (edited 11-11-2001).] |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) Oh Jennifer, I believe we all have these feelings deep inside ourselves, and there is no accepted explanation for all of this, and there may never be. But I know deep down as long as you follow your loving heart and believe in yourself, you will find the bliss and joy within, and you'll never want to know, for you'll always be our special, beautiful loving friend! (smiles) God Bless You, sweet friend!!! (kiss on cheek) We all love you!!! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Jennifer, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shie upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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kat Member
since 2000-05-20
Posts 387 |
"No one really knows How I feel deep inside I've been numbed to the bone As I hide my wounded feelings From those who know me best Trying one more time To pass this wretched test" You echo my feelings to the T. I ask why daily and know that one day I'll have the answer. The problem is, that when nothing makes sense and no matter how hard you try nothing goes the way you want or the way you planned, it's difficult even though you know at one point the answers will be there. Numbing yourself is sometimes the only way you get through things. I hope things turn around for you and that when you do get your answers they will be the one's worth waiting for because they'll finally be your dreams come true. Take care "Hugs" Kat |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Kathleen: You are very wise, my friend. My heart is still beating here. I do believe in me, but some days it's not easy. I don't believe I failed, but perhaps inside I feel I failed myself a little. That is more disappointing than anything else. Nothing is ever just one person's fault. I truly believe that. Thanks for the 2 cents. Startime: I believe every trial we face today perpares us for tomorrow. I guess I see it more and more. I never really thought about how many people I touch with my work by sharing it here. Thank you for pointing that out to me. If I can help others, than it will all be worth it to me. RP: Some things are better left a mystery. perhaps this is one of them. Thank you! Amy: Aw, thank you very much for your words, my friend. Sorry you know these feelings so well. They are far from fun to experience, but hopefully I can learn from them and move on. I doubt I'll ever really give up, just sometimes I get weary from the struggle. So many questions, yet so few answers. I have learned that all thing come in time, not my time but God's time. So I will try to be patient. Magnus: I know what you mean, my friend. The pain remains constant within until we realize a couple things. First, we are not alone even though we feel that way. Second, we are never given more than we can bear. It all happens for a reason I believe. Last, we have to learn to truly forgive. I think forgiving yourself is far tougher than forgiving others. I am happy to share my words with you and everyone else here. Somehow, helping others doesn't make it seem so bad after all, does it? Martie: You are very right. There are many lessons to be learned from this. More than I ever imagined to be honest. I am trying to stay open and take them as they come. Thank you! Midnitesun: Awesome poem you referenced! Thank you for pointing it out and sharing it with me. I relate to it in many ways. Thank you for the compliment of touching your soul. Your words do the same for me. Poet deVine: Oh yes, the tests in life are abundant. I believe they have strengthed my character and made me a better person. Sometimes I feel I failed, although I don't think any of us ever truly fail. The only failure is to give up and stop trying. There are reasons for eevrything and I am figuring them out little by little. Thanks! faterider: As long as ew are true to ourselves, that is the only thing that really matters. If we know we did our best, we can walk away without regret. So true. Hugs and kisses back... Peaches: Forgiveness does help, that's for sure. You are far from alone and I see I am too. Thank you for your words. I appreciate them. vandana: EagleScorpion: Thank you! Greeneyes: The battle is daily, but my will is strong. I believe it will prevail. Thank you much. Noah: We all feel this way at one time or another I agree. I am doing my best to follow my heart and believe in myself. Took me a long time to reach this point, but I finally have. You, dear friend, are wise beyond your years. Thank you so much for your words of love and encouragement. God Bless You! Your heart shines as well. kat: I'm so sorry to hear you relate to this so well. Please know you are far from alone. You will have the answers you seek one day as will I. We just have to have faith. Sometimes numbing yourself is the only way to deal with it until you are strong enough to face it head on. I hope you get your answers also. Things will turn around in time. Take care. ((HUGS)) All writing comes |
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