Tonight we talked about meeting in person
Our meeting for the first time
Sounded so strange
Since I know you like the back of my hand

We discussed our feelings
How we are both scared and nervous
I think I want this more than you
Then again, maybe that's what you want me to think?

You try to keep control of your love for me
Won't allow it to come out too much
I guess you feel it's safer that way
So you minimize what we share, though you say you don't

You don't like it when I give you too many compliments
All I'm doing is speaking what my heart feels
And what my head thinks
Do you not feel worthy of the love I give to you freely?

Tonight you asked me would I be hurt
If we didn't make love
What do you think?
Do you think I'm petty or shallow?

So if you must keep your feelings under wraps
Don't ever let me know the depth of your love
When we meet, it can be somewhere public
We'll do lunch and make small talk

But don't look in my eyes
For you'll see the pool of love that awaits
As my soul calls out to yours
While my heart stops, waiting for your response

If I look away with a tear in my eye
Don't ask me what's wrong
I might get real and tell you how much I love you
How you mean the world to me

I speak of forever and I hear your sigh
As though you don't believe in such a word
You tell me there are other women like you
That I'll find someone else-and I sigh

I tell you that I don't want anyone else
The only person I want is you
You think I shed these tears of blue
For just anyone?

Tonight, I shared with you my deepest feelings
I told you that I was nervous and scared too
Thinking that might bring us closer together
Perhaps it just made us drift apart

I won't sleep tonight, how can I
With you so many thousand miles from me
Things so uncertain and unresolved between us
Feels like I can't breathe

I am the other woman
Never in a million years did I think I would be
Still,  I feel the love you have for me
Sometimes though I question your reasons why

She is a very lucky woman
But she doesn't even realise what she has
I blink back the tears
Feels like a tidal wave is about to consume me

Maybe one of these days
You'll see how much I love you
Not only will you realise it
You'll understand that you deserve it

Then again maybe you won't
And I'll dissapear into the mist
Heart broken and shattered
Pride intact

But who cares about my stupid pride?
I don't--
I just want to be with you
But I'm not forcing you into anything

You are a free bird
Able and willing to do as you please
I won't let my "chains of love" tie you down
Just say the word, and I'll be gone

Or tell me that you love me
That you really need me
And that you want me to stay
Let me love you forever baby

Tonight I felt like I lost you
Tears upon lashes shed
As the morning Sun with all her Glory
Rose in the sky for yet another day

I pulled out your picture
Traced it with my fingertips
Please can we try to make this work out
I gaze out at the Carolina sky, heart in hand

Blue eyes meeting blue sky, your same sky
Vision becomes clearer as tears fade
Despite all the odds, I'm hoping
Hoping and waiting, will we find our way?

Tonight I felt like I lost my best friend & soul-mate
Then I realised I haven't
You're still tucked softly away
Deep inside my heart forevermore


AMK
July 24, 2001