Do I Dare?

The pain finally caught up with me
It mixed with the love I feel for you
I lashed out in anger
I wanted you to feel the pain I do

So many night of wanting
To be right there by your side
Both our foolish actions almost costed us
Our love it almost did divide

It feels like role reversal
Now you want what I have from the start
Truth of the matter is doesnt matter if I fight it
You are the keeper of my heart

Tears rained down my face this weekend
As my heart felt like it was breaking in two
Though I spent time with another
She simply was not you

Now you offer your heart freely
Telling me the things I've longed you to say
Do I dare let my heart fall again
Tell you to go or ask you to stay?

Heart please do not fail me
Give me the strength I use to have before
Do I dare walk away from this all
Do I dare close the door?

But you and I aren't finished
I hear my heart screaming out what's true
Every word I say, every breath I take
Is completely wrapped up into you

It took something so drastic
For you to finally see
That though my words may be grand
They truly represent the essence of me

I'm not sure what changed for you
Perhaps it was my almost walking out the door
That made you drop your pride
Left your heart to fall flat on the floor

But I see a difference now
A deeper love
But I'm not sure if I can trust it
I turn my eyes to heaven above

Dear God let me make the right decision
To myself I must be true
So I follow the path of my destiny
Hoping it leads me to you

And though I am still hurting
Though my heart is full of pain
I'm still hoping all will be cleansed
By your love and the falling of new rain

Amy M. Kennedy
July 31, 2001

"love is like a butterfly, the more
you chase it...the more it will elude
you"