Open Poetry #14 |
So Broken |
Saunni Senior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 1777West Virginia |
So Broken It remains so vivid here in my mind tonight A memory I vowed to stand private to the world But, with grace I write from a so broken heart Of the tears left behind of this so broken girl... I found my faith to be in the hands of a friend I thought heaven stood along my side But, I ran the longest road one can possible imagine And, I learned what it meant to slowly die... On one so broken night I found myself where cries couldn't be heard And, I never knew the night would ever end On my back staring at the ceiling through hazy eyes I fell hard to what I called my friend... I then closed my eyes to what I was about to go through And, breathed the last breath of sanity I would own I felt the extreme weight of him upon me beyond my control How was he ever the man I thought I had known... That so broken moment left me running far into my mind There was just no where else to hide So beneath him I prayed for I was just to weak And, God knows I'm just not the fighting kind... My so broken life stands not knowing what lies on ahead For my days will never be the same I spent a so broken hour at what seemed a lifetime to me In the middle of one mans unfair game... I'm so broken in the way a heart can never be fixed And, I still pray anxiously for the sun to rise There's never a night I don't fear the darkness out there For that so broken man still haunts my dreams each night... Saun Sauni :) |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
Saunni...this poem is so utterly sad... these lines hit me so hard i could feel the tears well.. "a memory I vowed to stand private to the world" "i found my faith to be in the hands of a friend" "there was just no where else to hide" "I'm so broken in a way a heart can never be fixed" how i have felt those words a hundered times...all i can say is...cuts do heal...you never forget...but you do heal...even if you have to heal yourself |
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Mabel A. Dilley Senior Member
since 2001-03-17
Posts 859Seattle, WA, USA |
These deep feelings of unworth, of brokeness is exactly why we impress rape victims they must talk about their feelings, go to the nearest ER and report the rape, call the authorities and bring charges. Rape has nothing to with sex and everything to do with violence against women. His insanity and violence left you feeling helpless. Don't let him roam free, for he will do this again to another unsuspecting woman. "I am not now that which I have been." |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
I'm sorry if this has happened to you. Please stay strong, you are, you know, if you are able to write about it. Don't let the evil beat you. Email if I can help. I have been there. Sandra |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
You write so well of the pain of betrayal--this flowed so beautifully too...this is what I think of as a "painted poem"--the visuals and the feeling translated and transported me to feeling. Very Nice Work here! |
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Watersign6 Senior Member
since 2001-05-25
Posts 823Hurricane,WV |
i couldnt help but cry when i read this,its a painful write i can tell and i hope by writing about it you have started healing and that you can talk to someone about it keep writing,i find it very helpful in dealing with all my feelings and emotions i send you big (((((HUGS)))) |
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Tiersdin Member Elite
since 2000-11-17
Posts 2364east coast |
Sauni, please, take the advice of Julian. Get help and speak to a couselor about what has happened. Please don't suffer through this alone, you deserve to get your life back. If you need to talk, please email me. *hugs to you* ~Tier |
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Titia Geertman Member Ascendant
since 2001-05-07
Posts 5182Netherlands |
Oh dear, that's a whole lot you've gone through, almost impossible to deal with all by yourself. I urge you to take the advice that Julian gave you. If you want to talk, just mail me, I'll listen, but I think it takes a proffessionel to really get you out of there. Please consider. Titia A rose is a rose is a rose...I guess... |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
in silent prayer of the heart |
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Interloper
since 2000-11-06
Posts 8369Deep in the heart |
Never stop praying. Seek help for yourself and put that animmal where he belongs ... in a cage. God bless and keep you in his bosom. |
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JLR Senior Member
since 2001-02-04
Posts 1785 |
Sincere, excellent advice already having been given...it is only yours to take or not. Be well. |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Saunni honey look in your email (hugs) |
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azblond Senior Member
since 1999-07-01
Posts 637The Steamy Desert |
So sad...this brings up memories from a time long past...my heart cries with recognition. Let my words fall first upon deaf ears before a closed mind... |
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