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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738
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I don't have feelings. I write them away. You think I'm concealing? I'm done with this game. The hatred that underscores this passion's play-- done with revealing my heartbreak each day. All talk and ideals and rhymes that can sway as my heart breaks over finger's type play. Everything over and over again-- another heartbreak-- another lost friend. My father is dying. My friend? She is dead. I don't have feelings. I write them instead. |
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Logan Senior Member
since 2001-05-28
Posts 1641Arkansas |
I am so sorry about your father and your friend, but isn't typing getting those feelings from eating you alive..Best of luck, and it is a good write...gentle smile |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Logan? thank you, but I'm sitting here, staring at a picture that I admired more than once in my friend's home. There was a running joke between us that one day it would be mine. It was delivered to me tonight. My friend hanged herself less than a month ago...so no...there's little comfort for me tonight, but I do thank you and the forum for putting up with my anger. I'm sorry. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Now to see things clear, it's hard enough I know While you're waiting for reality to show Without dreaming of the perfect love and holding it so far above If you stumbled on to someone real, you'd never know (You'd never know) You could be with somebody who is lonely too (Sometimes it doesn't show) He might be trying to get across to you (Words can be so slow) When your own emptiness is all that's getting through There comes a point when you're not sure why you're still talking I passed that point long (Long ago) Now I'm so tired of all this circling And all these glimpses of the end (You know it's useless to pretend) That's all the voices say: "You'll go right on circling Until you've found some kind of friend" Now I'm sitting here wondering what to say (That you might recognize) Afraid that all these words might scare you away (And break through the disguise) No one ever talks about their feelings anyway Without dressing them in dreams and laughter I guess it's just too painful otherwise. ~Jackson Browne~ The Late Show you "sigh" beautifully baby... what are you apologizing for??.. honest sincere emotive poetry?...I didnt think so ... write it out me twin ... wrap it in rhyme, find the quiet comfort in the release and heal in the purge love you KA me [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 06-05-2001).] |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
Powerful emotionally raw words. I am sorry that you are facing such pain right now. HUGE HUG. Take care, and check your e-mail box. "Build a man a fire, he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire and he'll be warm for the rest of his life". Terry Pratchett |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
*long low sigh*....wow do I know this or what?.....sometimes I worry about myself...I write out my feelings, post them...and forget...it is a way of cleansing...but some things need not be cleansed and forgotten, they need changed.....nice work lady  |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
I disagree...you DO have feelings. If you didn't you're poetry wouldn't touch us so... |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
I don't know how you do it sometimes....I think it's not true that G*d will only hand us what we can cope with...I think sometimes it's a bit too much for anyone..huggssss on this one..deep sighhhh ~Wynter "The worst prison would be a closed heart". |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
I echo Sharon It's always a pleasure to read you hon Maree |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Each person deals with angst differently I believe. Myself? Well, I write. It hurt me to read this, knowing the pain and gut courage it took to write it. I'm sorry this happened. I spent 20 years without friends, barracaded inside my home and fought depression and anger for 35 years. I KNOW what interaction and being around people is to me...it is life. Never apologize for honest, sincere, heart wrenching words if they get it out. But please don't keep it in. You are far too beautiful a lady to keep it inside..we are all here for you in whatever capacity we can be. Sometimes we feel like no one wants to hear and maybe we're "bleeding all over the page" and you know something? Sure, we are. Poets bleed. But when they stop, perhaps the transfusion from other poets gives a newer, fresher God-saving life. God bless you. [This message has been edited by Irish Rose (edited 06-17-2001).] |
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Joyce Johnson
since 2001-03-10
Posts 9912Washington State |
We all have our ways to deal with grief. I'm sorry there is so much to deal with. Joyce |
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RSWells Member Elite
since 2001-06-17
Posts 2533 |
You have a right to your anger. Suicide is a selfish and senseless act leaving only the living to wonder. I'm sorry for your loss. "Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to decieve" |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Logan...I would like to thank you again, properly this time. My apologies if I seemed abrupt...thank for reading! JM...you are one secret weapon of a friend lady...I treasure you, yanno that? If you don't then shame on ME! love you. brian...you, my irish bud, are a LOVE!!! HUGE HUG back to ya...now let's get in drag and go dancing!  jb..sorry I wasn't around as much...so much happened here so quickly. But thank you, lovie, for reading, caring, and sharing. sharon...I guess I do. I'm sitting here remembering that night. I threw the picture in garbage TWICE. Thank you, for being "there" for me. I'm afraid I'm totally graceless when it comes to these things. Wynter? you, my friend, were like a cool breeze on a hot day today...lol..and this is New Orleans...we appreciate wynter here.. Thank you again, with HUGS. Maree...and it's always a pleasure to know that you read my ramblings. Thanks, and I've got a new dream too...someday, you ARE gonna show me around Sydney!!!! Kath? I thank you for saying that. Sometimes I fuss before I post, thinking, to myself, "well there ya go again...they are gonna think you are playing on sympathy!" But I find that it doesn't matter what I try to write about, it's all going to come out anyway...so, thank you for understanding! Joyce? Thank you for your consistant kindness to me. Was just a bad week. Apparently she had worse. I do try to keep that in mind. Hugs and smiles to you. RS...it was confusing to me. To see two people I love, one battling to see another day, and the other just threw that away. I'm not angry anymore, even though I still don't understand. I think something peaceful took over me after I released the stupid idea that I could understand, "why". Thank you for reading! And welcome, once again. Thanks all, and now please...go read something HAPPY...(I know, I know, it would have to be another poet! LOL with hugs to all you wonderful people here at Passions! |
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dgvarner Member Elite
since 2000-05-13
Posts 3552High Springs, Florida |
ouch...this one aches a bit... some of lifes heartbreak written very well... heres wishing you a sunnier day... , gno i wont be afraid. |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
serenity- WOW...and OUCH!!! this just aches...and i can relate to this all too well at times. thanks for sharing this one.. hugs, ~vicky "...until you have read the verse on his |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Thanks g--yer a doll!!! vicky--it's good to see ya here! Thanks for reading! Thanks again to all for tolerating my rants! Love you good poet people! |
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