.....time to die" a poor excuse

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forgotten_soul
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since 2001-04-06

Posts 5
australia

0 posted 2001-05-09 10:38 AM

"time to die"...a battle with addiction

Cowering in the trenches
suffering and in pain
This life like others
a battle where many are slain.

To see the photographs,
to remember the past.
Where does the innocence go,
From where is the shadow cast?

I close my eyes
so better I see,
reflections and remembrance
of things that will always horrify me.

All the misery
unnoticed and not seen.
The feeling of being bulletproof
and coming away clean.

A life wasted escaping a demon
hidden in a bottle, obsessed and full of lust,
with a passion and a mission
to turn his mothers once beautiful boy
into a memory, a handful of dust.

The many faces seen
of a person just one.
The abuse, the anger
the feel of cold steel
in the mouth the barrel of a gun.

How could it be done
to reduce to tears,
to fight and argue
with many known of years
...and one good one of one.

The screams have stopped, the fighting ceased
leaving behind the senseless loss,
blood, shame and fears.
Scared and tortured
how long the recovery
days, months or years?

Friends shine through
showing love in their own way
even to this once drunken asshole
who more than lost his own way.

Sitting here now with tears in my eyes,
I raise a healthy glass and propose a toast
to those that have fallen or chose to fight
this addiction of which there is nothing to boast.

The darkened past
relieved by a beautiful day.
Bad weather and trying times
nay to get in the way.

The bottle is full
and shall it remain.
Time to die is for the past
a lesson well learnt,
A better life...the path is being cast.

thankyou to those that saw who I really was, and stayed

[This message has been edited by forgotten_soul (edited 05-10-2001).]

OLIAS
Senior Member

since 2000-06-20

Posts 1090
Pearl city Iowa

1 posted 2001-05-09 10:48 AM

Very powerful words with much courage and conviction, I salute anyone who has walked down that tunnel and returned to the light.
Thank you for sharing, be well.

Regards,
Olias.

Sweeetsuz
Senior Member

since 2000-07-23

Posts 770
Fresno CA.

2 posted 2001-05-09 10:52 AM

You have powerfully mastered the misery of addiction and the hope of recovery.... well done

Blessed be and merrily met with good thoughts and feelings to all

Sven

Member Laureate

since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

3 posted 2001-05-09 07:46 PM

an excellent description of the feelings and the loss and the road back. . .

well done. . .

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forgotten_soul
New Member

since 2001-04-06

Posts 5
australia

4 posted 2001-05-10 06:15 AM

thankyou for all your kind words

helen smith
Member

since 2001-03-12

Posts 240

5 posted 2001-05-10 12:41 PM

A darkened poem relieved by a beautiful end ...had i known you i would have stayed ,mate.......best wishes cobber.

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