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jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13
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0 posted 2001-05-04 10:10 AM


...and the winner is Leave Without Pay

I can’t go home,
This check, and
all my checks for the next thirty years
are already spent...
I can’t go home.
I don’t have any leave left.
I can’t go home.
But I can’t stay,
I can’t even function.
I don’t even know what day it is.
I can’t stay.
My eyes are overfull,
keeping them open
is more than I can take.
I can’t stay.

Someone else’s hands must be
on the wheel.
I feel like a passenger
in the driver’s seat.
The taillights hypnotize.
Familiarity, my only guide,
I turn toward home
with an aching need
for solitude-
no interaction
nothing required
just my pillow
and me.

[This message has been edited by jellybeans (edited 05-04-2001).]

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Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989

1 posted 2001-05-04 10:15 AM


My sentiments exactly today jellybeans.  I wanna grab the pillow, sleep, and hope tomorrow the sun feels just a little warmer and the day is just a little brighter.  Here's hoping for both of us!!  *s*

On the wings of words our spirits fly....and our souls are free.
~Me~

RMW
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since 2001-03-21
Posts 1424

2 posted 2001-05-04 10:44 AM


Jellybeans...."..an aching need for solitude.." My. I remember a phrase expressed by a merchant seaman...."..the sea drives you ashore, and the shore drives you back again." Thanks for sharing this wonderful piece.  Bob
Mother_Earth
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since 2000-11-20
Posts 1370
1/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan
3 posted 2001-05-04 11:11 AM


jellybeans, please, please be sure you know who is in the drivers seat on the drive home!!!  After that, you can quietly collapse.  I know the feelings though.  You said it well.   ME
VAS
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450
Oregon
4 posted 2001-05-04 11:27 AM


So terribly well-written, jellybeans!  My heart goes out to you, my prayers are for your safety and recuperation, not to mention security in many facets.  Now snuggle that pillow and play soft music.
jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13
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5 posted 2001-05-04 11:57 AM


thank you all so much...I posted this, with the feeling that it was drastically lacking, but I just don't have the mental ability to edit it...thank you again   for your comments, your prayers and your warm wishes  
helen smith
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since 2001-03-12
Posts 240

6 posted 2001-05-04 06:27 PM


I agree VAS   so very well written... fabulous in fact
Irish Rose
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since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263

7 posted 2001-05-04 08:24 PM


Hope you are well...

Kathleen Blake

"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass,
and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee


Mabel A. Dilley
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since 2001-03-17
Posts 859
Seattle, WA, USA
8 posted 2001-05-04 08:28 PM


There's a point, and sounds like you've reached it, where no amount of willing yourself awake will make it so. Be careful.

"I am not now that which I have been."

jwesley
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563
Spring, Texas
9 posted 2001-05-04 08:32 PM


Yep, yep, yep! SAID it PERFECTLY!

jwesley

jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298

10 posted 2001-05-07 03:25 PM


thanks all...a weekend of sleep has improved my outlook and it sure is nice to see poet friends wishing well for me  
suthern
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11 posted 2001-05-09 11:41 AM


The desperation and overload are so very well written... so glad that driver (whoever it was *S*) got you home safely. *S*
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