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peppermint35
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0 posted 2001-04-26 02:06 PM


What is this creeping over me
Why am I so afraid
I am safe in my own place
Nothing can hurt me here
Where does this come from
Why does it come at all
It happens so fast, without warning
One moment all is well, the next
I am drowining in a tidal wave
Struggling to catch my breath
Wave after wave crashes over me
Nameless dread, unknown fear
Sweat breaks out over my body
Hot, so hot ... my skin flushed
My pulse racing wildly
Jumping from thought to thought
No clear-cut goal in mind
Except to find a hiding place
This dark is good
It is safe in my cave
All alone save for one
My old nemesis is back
Back with a vengeance
Panic Attack.

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

© Copyright 2001 Lavenia Crosley - All Rights Reserved
Irish Rose
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1 posted 2001-04-26 02:21 PM


I've suffered from these for 40 years, just never had the courage to post it publicly!!
They are very real, and if this is not from personal experience, you are blessed!!!!!

Kathleen Blake

"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass,
and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee


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Member Rara Avis
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Deep in the heart
2 posted 2001-04-26 02:24 PM


Yup, and even worse is the fear of having one.  Write on.

Live for love. Without love, you don't live.


RMW
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since 2001-03-21
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3 posted 2001-04-26 02:31 PM


Peppermint....as Irish Rose said....we hope that your poem is not from personal experience. However, if it is, find out all that you can about this malady. There is a wealth of information available; not to mention counselors who can help an individual develop the tools (one of the most important of which is controlled breathing...an art in itself)with which the symptoms can be mitigated and, in many cases, eliminated over time. Feel free to e-mail if you would like to discuss. Bob
peppermint35
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4 posted 2001-04-26 08:52 PM


I appreciate all your comments and your concern... these are mine.  They were under control, but ... due to some recent things going on, they've started up again... but I'm fighting back.. I promise you that

Kathleen, I do truly emphathize...

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

inot2B
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since 2000-09-18
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5 posted 2001-05-07 06:41 AM


Been there and it sure does take alot out of living. Don't like to wander far from home when I'm alone anymore. One can't be sure when it will creep up and take over again.
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6 posted 2001-05-07 07:08 PM


having never had this. . . I can only go by what I know. . . but the words convey that sense of a loss of control and the fear. . .

well written pepper. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

snowpants
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7 posted 2001-05-07 09:11 PM


Hey Pepper...sorry you have to go through this, and you know that we're all here for ya...but this is a wonderfully expressed poem, m'friend.

sp  

to be with you...
I've tried to hide my passion,
but it's just no use...
piece by piece I lose it
when you walk in the room...

Rosebud1229
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8 posted 2001-05-07 10:32 PM


I know how easy it is to hide in a corner, to feel solitude, when in fact this just helps you go deeper into despair, sharing with others and talking about it is a healing process, the only way to get through it is to keep faith. thank you for sharing this, and speaking out.
peppermint35
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since 2000-05-28
Posts 1106
Texas, USA
9 posted 2001-05-08 02:39 AM


Thank you all... I wish I could manage each one of you individually....but sometimes it's more than I can do to bring myself to speak at all right now....

Sorry, not trying to dump... I'm getting help...but right now it's a long way uphill.  

I am glad it said what I hoped it would say...I thought maybe.. if I write it out..it will defuse it a little bit... and I think it helped somewhat...

Bless ya'll all.. you're all so very wonderful

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

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