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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I'm thinking I need to see a doctor, cause this ache is now more than I can take. I'm wondering if even he can tell me ... just how much a heart can bend before it breaks. Maybe he can give me an X-ray ... to figure out this pain in my chest. Perhaps he'll tell me to take a break, cause from this ache ... I'm thinking I need some rest. Maybe there is a prescription, something to quiet all these voices in my head. It wasn't so long ago I heard only poetry and promise ... now I only hear butterfly cries of loneliness instead. And while I'm there ... I think I will ask him to check my eyes. I'm afraid they have lost their vision and clarity ... for as hard as I try ... I can no longer see those butterflies. These brown eyes used to see the shades of gray, but now they just seem blind and jaded. Some days I don't even recognize me ... too much was lost from view when all my dreams faded. While I'm there I'll ask for some ointment, something to cool this intense burning beneath my skin. I need some relief from the heat ... from the smoldering flame that scorches me from with in. Perhaps he can offer me some advice, words of wisdom to help me recover what's left of me. I don't remember her anymore ... I lost track of me when she moved in with complacency. Do you think he has a magic pill, one that will cure the pain of unrequited. I cant recall when this empty ache wasn't there, and I know it was discontent ... that unrequited invited. To be honest ... I don't think he can help, it would take a miracle to make this ache go away. Besides I'm too tired to follow his directions, or perhaps deafened by denial to even hear what he has to say. Come to think of it ... I don't need to see a doctor I'm thinking I need to call an exorcist. Cause no matter how many times I get burned ... Still I never learn ... the pretty blue flame I cant resist. I don't need a medical degree ... the answers are so easy to see ... I'm the one who holds the key ... I just need to set myself ~free of me~. HI ... my name is Janet Marie ... I'm my own worst enemy. ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ Doctor My Eyes By: Jackson Browne Doctor, my eyes have seen the years And the slow parade of fears without crying Now I want to understand I have done all that I could To see the evil and the good without hiding You must help me if you can Doctor, my eyes Tell me what is wrong Was I unwise to leave them open for so long 'Cause I have wandered through this world And as each moment has unfurled I've been waiting to awaken from these dreams People go just where there will I never noticed them until I got this feeling That it's later than it seems Doctor, my eyes Tell me what you see I hear their cries Just say if it's too late for me Doctor, my eyes Cannot see the sky Is this the prize for having learned how not to cry **please forgive the droll tone, I'm doing some personal spring cleaning,(purging) I am fine, I promise.** I love your imperfections ... I love your everything ... Your broken heart ... your broken wings. [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 04-19-2001).] |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
You are so wonderful and brave--you write your heart time and time again with such grace and style and sincerity of spirit. Not a moth, you....a butterfly painted irridescent---now go fertilize dem flowers baby and don't worry so much!  love you. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Whoa....seems to me it needs to be some WE therapy |
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Waseem Cheema Member
since 2001-03-16
Posts 369Pakistan |
Yes you are very right Sunshine. it really looks WE theropy. I love to nice poetry. |
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EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
"Come to think of it ... I don't need to see a doctor I'm thinking I need to call an exorcist. Cause no matter how many times I get burned ... Still I never learn ... the pretty blue flame I cant resist. I don't need a medical degree ... the answers are so easy to see ... I'm the one who holds the key ... I just need to set myself ~free of me~. HI ... my name is Janet Marie ... I'm my own worst enemy." You know that I felt every word from every line Janet. Take care my friend, in time it shall come to pass that everything shall be as it should! "Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
JanetMarie~ 'it would take a miracle to make this ache go away.' If a hug helps ... you've got it. If it takes a prayer to bring that miracle ... you've got that too ! Love ya', sweet poet gal. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Sweet Janet, my heart aches with every word....I understand the cleaning....me too in a way.....here's to healed hearts....hugs SEA |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I understand... especially the ending... all too well. Why DOESN'T someone find a cure for heartbreak? What color ribbons should we wear to promote our cause... black and blue? *S* Well written, gal... |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Well I am really big on choices - you can choose to let something or someone get you down or you can choose to realize that it was not meant to be, and move forward. Now in theory that all sounds good, but putting it into practice does require your own mindset, so take two "friends" and call me in the morning. When you have ailments such as these, only leaning on your friends seems to work, and it is way cheaper than tylenol! Janet Marie - huge hugs...I too am nursing a crack in my big muscle and it hurts darn bad, doesn't it?  ~*~ If the want a rainbow ~ you have to put up with a little rain ~*~ |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
JM, I don't know why but what I was going to put in tomorrow seems to come to mind, sneek preview. Hidden Wisdom A town fool enters the bakery each morning Ordering his daily bread. The baker smiling and only sporting, asked Would you like some cake instead? The fool said I don't know what you mean by cake. Why cake is but a fancy bread. The fool thought and nodded his head and said I think I'd rather simple bread. Your poem is your usual wonderful. Winkiewinkie Stinky |
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JLR Senior Member
since 2001-02-04
Posts 1785 |
I can relate to so much of this, the loss, the questions, the acknowledgement of the problems core, the lack of strength to address it...great write! Glad you are ok. Speak when you are angry--and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret...Laurence J. Peter |
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Mabel A. Dilley Senior Member
since 2001-03-17
Posts 859Seattle, WA, USA |
The doctor is in the house; the poet written on the page so wonderfully. My advise, listen to Mysteria - take three friends we are cheaper when purchased in a clump of blooming wildflowers. "I am not now that which I have been." |
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snowpants Member Elite
since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061KS |
'To be honest ... I don't think he can help, it would take a miracle to make this ache go away. Besides I'm too tired to follow his directions, or perhaps deafened by denial to even hear what he has to say. Come to think of it ... I don't need to see a doctor I'm thinking I need to call an exorcist. Cause no matter how many times I get burned ... Still I never learn ... the pretty blue flame I cant resist.' Some achingly poignant lines here, JM...your words touch me, as they always do, m'friend...great write... sp  to be with you... |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
if only DR's could cure what ails us, we would all be well....letting it out helps and you are one of the best I've had the honor to read doing so....HUGS and more HUGS to you...Peace... Lauren~ *** "Within you I lose myself |
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Joyce Johnson
since 2001-03-10
Posts 9912Washington State |
Oh, dear sweet Janet Marie. I was hoping you'd find that doctor and pass his name around. I don't think I want the exorist. I love your poem Joyce |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Janet--I wish I had a remedy other then words, all I know is that time really is a healer...and I wouldn't have believed it either...and you are stronger then you think..you prove that by the way you write. Hugs, sweet friend. |
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Tiersdin Member Elite
since 2000-11-17
Posts 2364east coast |
Good for you, JM, writing is very cleansing as every poet knows and you get to turn out some pretty great poetry in the bargain! *hugs* good job! -Tier |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Cleanse my heart... Cleanse my soul... Teach me how... To let it go....... ahhhhh yes sweet poetry all the reasons that made us smile and all the mirrors that make us weep...it's here baby...all the reasons that you know my soul and all the words say....yes....I KNOW... Hugs to you sweet sister... I love you...and your poetry shines when you purge baby...on that I cross my butterfly wings and hope to fly~ |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
If you ever find a cure, you'll be a billionaire...I think this is one disease we've all had at one time or another. I think though that I've had a vaccination somewhere for it....the heart can't hurt if it doesn't feel anymore..... |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
thank you all for these sweet, encouraging, responses ... and for indulging my purging muse... yes we heal as we write...but if we dont learn from our mistakes and try to treat our selves better.. then the need to heal is a constant process. It aint easy being a moth in a world filled with butterflies(and pretty blue flames  Thank you all for the good advice... it is taken in the spirit in which it was given my love to poetry land jm I love your imperfections ... I love your everything ... |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
This is heartwrenching, just be careful who you put your trust in; the open heart is more vulnerable! Kathleen Blake |
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