this whirlwind of emotion
is pulling me
into the nothingless bliss of my life

a life without love
without hope
without faith

needing help
just too scared to ask
but scared no one will believe my story

holding it all inside hurts
and keeps time from healing those wounds
unless theres another reason the pain never ceases

is the strength in holding it all in?
it hurts but does it make you stronger?

or is it in talking about it
being dependent on someone else
someone to tell you what to do
to ease your pain
instead of dealing with it yourself

carrying all this pain should allow me
permission to ignore some of the stuff ive been dealt
life should be like a game of cards,
before you draw a new one, you get to put one down

but lifes not fair
and mine is slowly

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