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Evylyn
Junior Member

since 2001-06-04

Posts 20
Florida, USA

0 posted 2001-06-06 12:21 PM

Blah..I feel enraged at the moment. Maybe a poem will help clear up these feelings? Hopefully?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"You lied to her!"
My conscience screams at me
"Can't you see why?"
I glare it down and beam.

"The smile is fake
Stop it now."
Though it is right..
Always is, somehow.

Why is it so wrong
To play out your fantasies?
Why do they act
Like it's such a horrid disease?

When I'm there
Yes, I forget about reality
But why do they show it
Such brutality?

I am loved and hated
Battled and befriended
The game sweeps me in
And, in daydreams, I am left suspended.

A lover, a dreamer
I guess those describe me
Am I so wretched
To think differently?

They already condone me
For all the "crimes" I've committed
Yes, I look normal outside
But, within, am wild and unsubmitted.

Like an untaimed stallion
My heart and mind run free
Away from their dreary ideals
Just trying to escape the misery.

How can something so good
Be so wrong?
I yearn to learn the answer
And probably will life-long.

The tears in my throat
Push against my vocal cords
They fight and the plead
Seering at me with jagged-edged swords.

"I will not cry!"
"She will not have that satisfaction!"
A life that is so dramatic
Must have this reaction!

If only they knew
All the trouble I face
This dilemma of mine
Should be examined by the base.

First, there is school
Which is mind-wracking enough
The summer has been kind
Thank the Gods for that fluff!

Not to mention social life
Which I am lacking in
At my school I'm an "outcast"
Only fellow shadows are my kin.

It's probably best
That I am not popular
For I know who my true friends are
Without examining them deeper.

How did this lead
To the story of my life?
I've probably bored you already
With all this petty strife.

So, now I'll take my leave
My intentions were just venting
I bid you farewell
And thanks; just for listening.

"The only thing that boggles the mind is the mind itself."

DarkAngelOfTheStars
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 255

1 posted 2001-06-06 12:29 PM

aww this was really good and cute i hope you feel better *hugz* see ya around

Dont knock on deaths door ...... ring the bell and run......he hates that

xShUgArHiGhx

Member Elite

since 2000-09-26

Posts 3150
tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

2 posted 2001-06-06 12:52 PM

Very good

I really liked this!

Child of the Stars

Senior Member

since 2000-09-07

Posts 1658
Ann Arbor, MI

3 posted 2001-06-06 12:57 PM

There you are, Evy!

It's Sciatica.

Way to vent...Yeah I know where you're coming from. Loved the 'fellow shadows' concept. Keep posting!!!

~Carly

"Go outside and use your own eyes. You'll be surprised to see things you've never been taught..."
~Edouard Manet

the_rescue
Member

since 2001-05-23

Posts 316
Japan

4 posted 2001-06-06 01:40 PM

this was a really good poem kinda sad though in differnet ways you expressed your emotion and feelings well though. hope you feel better

The Rescue

in the silence of the night I hear angels voices singing your name oh how beautiful is your name as they sing over and over. (SPOKEN)

anonymous albert ?

Member Elite

since 2001-03-23

Posts 2979

5 posted 2001-06-06 04:29 PM

great job...i really liekd the tone of this poem...made the reader part of the poem

...hope to see more...bye Aurora

i'm addicted to passions in poetry!...are you?

Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

6 posted 2001-06-06 04:53 PM

I liked this one a lot. Welcome to passions!
I really enjoyed this one. It's good to vent out emotions and you did it within this poem. Hope all goes well.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

knightlyshadows
Senior Member

since 2001-04-14

Posts 791
obscured vision

7 posted 2001-06-08 06:23 PM

evy! *does the its evy dance*

ooOOOoo i loved this ama! thought it was great...im putting it in my librart! so woo hoo for u!

i agree with carlAy about the shadows line...liked that alot. and i loved these stanzas:

I am loved and hated
Battled and befriended
The game sweeps me in
And, in daydreams, I am left suspended.

......................

Like an untaimed stallion
My heart and mind run free
Away from their dreary ideals
Just trying to escape the misery.

great job evy!*hugs*
tiff

“A single choice can build destinies,or destroy them.”

Where are you when i need you....?

a.k.a.maLa
Junior Member

since 2001-06-08

Posts 15
Florida, USA

8 posted 2001-06-08 09:51 PM

It was a pretty good poem. Change your icon *poke*

You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know wh

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