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Ceinwyn
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since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

0 posted 2001-04-24 01:38 PM

I'm here sitting on my blood stained knees
Begging and pleading
For this shrouding headache to leave my body
This confusion and this guilt
Is throwing me down a bottomless well
No matter what I do
It never seems to be good enough for you
I'm old enough to make my own decisions
Then why, oh why do you assume
You know what I do
It's not self-destruction
Nor self-afflicted
Just a simple descision
If I stumble and if I fall
Then allow me to learn from it all
Instead of beating it into every crevice and pore
I don't have to answer to anybody not even you
Only to myself, so please allow me to jump off of this shelf
And do it on my own at my own pace
As I allow my heart to be filled with laughter and grace
But how can I do so
With your stares and insintuating glares
You don't know me just quite yet
And I really don't think you're ready for that yet Because everytime I try to get close
I make a decision and let it go
And then you try to rub it back into my face
All because I made one little mistake
My one and only mistake on this earth is
Not allowing myself get close to you
Nor speaking when my heart wants me too
I only get in deeper into that bottomless well of lies
Surrounding and misting over my eyes
You would never understand
Or do you really want too?
I'm not bad nor up to anything
I only try to look out for myself and those around me
But that's one thing you can't see
Whenever we both get angry
All the respect I hold for you
Is hidden deep within my heart
I don't want to be in this power struggle anymore
I'm ready and willing to walk out that door
I'm no longer daddy's nor mummy's little girl anymore
I'm still alive
What more can you ask for......

"Let me be the one you call, if you jump I'll break your fall, lift you up and fly away with you into the night"

~Crash and Burn~

Acies

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Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-07

Posts 7665
Twilight Zone

1 posted 2001-04-24 05:22 PM

Wow!!! That was so expressive. Talking about pouring your heart out. You even poured your soul. I do hope things get better though. Amazing read. Thanks for sharing

"So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this give life to thee." W.S.

Allan Riverwood

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since 2001-01-04

Posts 3502
Winnipeg

2 posted 2001-04-24 06:07 PM

Good job Kristen. When are we going to finish Kismet? Or is it my turn?
I think that poem is in need of a reset... tell me what you think in the form of email.
~Allan

Build a man a fire, and he's warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.
~Unknown

Heavens Tears

Senior Member

since 2001-03-15

Posts 677

3 posted 2001-04-24 07:49 PM

Wow.
This poem was wonderful. Truly wonderful. OK, small vocab tonight, but again, truly wonderful!!

*~*Amanda*~*

*If the only place I can live my dreams is in my sleep, then I'll sleep forever!*

Fading Away

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since 2001-03-14

Posts 3131
Lynchburg, Virginia

4 posted 2001-04-24 08:19 PM

Wow.. This poem is so full of emotion. It's extremely well done. You portrayed your feelings so well that I almost couldn't stop reading. Very nice work.
Nicely done

--Marie

subconsciously, i think i can eat so much to make my stomach hurt, instead of my heart.

AngelPoet87
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 280
Indy

5 posted 2001-04-24 08:38 PM

Positively exquisite! (making a sad attempt at sounding intelligent)

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Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

6 posted 2001-04-24 10:31 PM

This was great. So much emotion within it. I enjoyed it.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

7 posted 2001-04-25 01:28 AM

heartfelt and so full of anguish......here's hoping it all works out

SEA

Godsend_1
Member

since 2001-04-19

Posts 247
great state of illinois

8 posted 2001-04-25 02:00 AM

wow this was an awesome poem hun there was so much emotion in it i really loved it and ya ever need a hellping hand just ask me ok love ya
ben redshaw the great

i am what i am and that is all that i am and all that i shall ever be......so deal with it

anonymous albert ?

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since 2001-03-23

Posts 2979

9 posted 2001-04-25 02:02 AM

great emotion protrayed thru this poem .
nice job and keep writng

...?

death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. -norman cousins

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