Open Poetry #12 |
Dreams of Reality |
nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
**A Year Ago , I felt this way **It seems to return upon this day: Dreams of Reality (title once inspired by Victoria) He says I am not living real my heart felt thoughts, just fantasy. Even though to me it seems I dream my real, to live them, be. Fantadreams or phantomdreams, they touch me in a special way. Whispered breaths when feeling, soft, contented, I, at least that day. It's been a year, he says too long Should be moving, growing strong. But in my dreams, reality is holding tight. No release, I see. A step to right, or one to left if made will I be on my way? Or is it forward I must go, to make some progress, what does he say? A coward I, he says, it's true. I guess inside I am one, too. Changes made in haste aren't clear, so softly smiling I sit here, and feel the pain from many words that offer not a comfort heard. Instead a disappointment, I as always feeling blame and cry. What's the use in my mind, see, only dreams of reality. Sometimes I think and feel, it's me, a fantasy of fantasy. ~Wynter/Maureen "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
This is a painful one, Wynter... I hope your visit back to these thoughts is one to measure progress made. *S* Well done! |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
And what is it the anniversary of...if I should know...pardon my fuzzy brain. I'm guessing a major loss, and one doesn't just 'get over' those. May sunshine fill you view and your heart. |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Yes, and where is Victoria anyway, I miss her and this is lovely, I am the world's biggest dreamer. I like your style, subtle and soft, yes, that's it SOFT words for my spirit. TGhanks again for the frame on my pic! Kathleen Blake "When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey." Laurie Lee |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Thank you suthern, and VAS a year ago I began to feel the loss of control of my life...of a thirty year marriage...dealing with an alcoholic, loss of attention, feelings of instability...not knowing what it was leading up to, just anxiety showing it's face. Eventually I came to realize that I can't sit back and let it all be stolen from me. Yesterday, those feelings returned making for me a very miserable day of hiding out from the world...and now I feel like I have to start over pushing myself to regain that part of me that is strong and can overcome these feelings. Kathleen, Victoria needed a break from here and says it is doing her a world of good *s...helps relieve those dark circles from too much glare *s huggzz and I am glad you liked the way it turned out. I shall have to go take a look now. ~Wynter "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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