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Secret Whisper
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since 2001-01-25
Posts 298
Through the Looking Glass

0 posted 2001-03-06 08:46 PM


I want to wake up tomorrow and be happy
Asking too much?
Maybe not so uncontrollably depressed
That’s all I need
Just one day
One day where I can see the beauty
Engulfing my world
The beauty I have stared at in repugnant, unwavering disgust for so many years

Today I rested on my cold front step
Staring out across the frozen snowy field in front of me
A very brisk, beautiful afternoon
Warm for March
Too cold from me
The only warmth coming from the ray of sun
Squeezing itself through the needled tree
Falling across the thickness of my thigh

My mind wandered to abstract places
To the faces of people
As cars rolled past in a hushed moan
Splashing in the puddles of melting snow and ice
A strange bird screamed out its soothsaying
No bother to me
Even the immaculately blue sky and smattering of high white clouds couldn’t reach me

My mind chattered away with a thousand thoughts at once
Thoughts that yielded nothing but acquiescent arguments with the boots on my feet
Abstract thought
Sounds of water droplets falling against icicles
Dangling from the eves of my prison
The cold concrete beneath me
Enticed my mind to thoughts of sex
Strangely
(I never understood satisfied people
Or atheists)

My tongue deceived my soul
As silent prayers slip out of my pursed lips
Floated into the cold air
Escorted by the sweetness of my breath
They seemed to travel only as far
As a broken tree branch
Hanging there for years now
I forget how it was maimed
No matter to me

Squeezing my eyes closed
I felt the summer creeping in
Not the summers of youth
The carefree amazement
Bugs being more valuable than life itself
Now tedious responsibilities kill joy
Money
That murderous *******
Hopelessly my mind strained to grab hold
Of the fibers woven in my memory
Slipping between my scarred fingers
With each exhalation

I want to wake up tomorrow and be happy
To see all the worlds pieces
God created them for me
I want to wake up
And not hate them all!
I want to wake up tomorrow…
Maybe that is enough




"Death marks the beginning, not the end. It is our journey to God." --Billy Graham

© Copyright 2001 Alice Lynn Wagner - All Rights Reserved
Dawn Eclipse
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since 2000-01-31
Posts 637
The Horsehead Nebula
1 posted 2001-03-06 10:23 PM


Nice job Secret Whisper.. I hope you feel a more positive outlook on life soon, if it's not as positive as you want it. nice piece.

"Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other course, no other way... No day but today"
~Broadway Musical RENT~

*Cassandra Roseen*


Embers_Before_God
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since 2001-03-06
Posts 101
USA
2 posted 2001-03-06 11:04 PM


I often feel this way...not too much whining...there is hope, at least I think so...hope is only as far away as our lips allow it to be...thanks for sharing your work...Embers

Dance with me under the moon. Touch my pale skin. Devour me. Love me.

Packratmike
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since 2001-02-25
Posts 632
California, USA
3 posted 2001-03-06 11:42 PM


This is excellent. I read it over several times, savoring each well-placed descriptive word. Great writing.

Packratmike

Midnight Dew
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since 2001-01-07
Posts 50
Forest Lake, MN
4 posted 2001-03-14 09:03 PM


This was a truly a beautiful piece. Thank you so much for sharing it. I read it a whole bunch of times and liked it better each time. I sympathize with your plight and hope your world perks up before too long. Just try to think of the good things in your life as well. Talents, Events, Friends... Every once in a while it helps. I think so anyway. Anyway, thank you again for sharing something so beautiful.

~Caitlin Hull~

"The Holy Spirit makes up all our souls, and when it 'flexes' it makes us do great things."



Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354
Listening to every heart
5 posted 2001-03-16 09:06 AM


I have felt the funk of depression....but my inner soul soon kicks me up and out of it... sometimes it is easier for some than for others...

but this, in this I see that you, too have that same little inner soul getting ready to kick you out of it....

it's written everywhere....

thank you for this!

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