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Mendy
Junior Member

since 2000-11-11

Posts 34

0 posted 2001-02-21 07:14 AM

Silence
_________________

For my father

you died with no tears
singing 'sentimental reasons'
with me through your mask.

You died looking for me - you said
in your mind,
to hold my hand
and for the first time declare
I L O V E Y O U S O N

I'm crying.

not that I lament the fact
we didn't get along,
or regret anything I said.
but that so far I've let you down.

so this one, dad
is for you
this one last effort
this final brave attempt

I realise now how you judged things
how you never, ever demanded
but quietly expected
In your patient silence
something special from me.

if it is true that the world talks toomuch then let us all keep quiet and hear the eloquence of silence - Richard Ntiru

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

1 posted 2001-02-21 07:19 AM

~~sighing...I felt this
and know the feelings {{hugs}}

~Wynter

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

Nate Dogg
Senior Member

since 1999-11-15

Posts 1658
Georgia, Fulton

2 posted 2001-02-21 09:43 AM

A very sad write...may peace be with you....Nate

Nathan

VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

3 posted 2001-02-22 10:17 AM

Isn't it something how we so often feel we fall short of our parents' hopes. Yet, maybe we are making higher expectations than they ever did and they can't say enough to make us believe they're satisfied until we're satisfied with ourselves.

Deep feeling poem, here, Mendy.

Mendy
Junior Member

since 2000-11-11

Posts 34

4 posted 2001-02-22 10:34 AM

thanks all for the kind words and hugs

VAS

I definately hear you on that - Personally I had created this illusion that nothing I could do would be good enough and that I couldn't live up to my dad's demands on me.

I realise now that he never really demanded anything and that I was puting the demands on myself (nothing wrong with that unless you blame someone else for it) but he did expect something - whatever was good for me with no pressure to deliver or live out his dreams

Think I just read him all wrong

if it is true that the world talks toomuch then let us all keep quiet and hear the eloquence of silence - Richard Ntiru

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