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VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

0 posted 2000-12-02 02:01 PM

Sunshine's title 'Searching...'

Searching Again for You
Virginia Salter

Here I am again
peering out the window at the blackness of night,
the blankness of the hour.

The darkness
barely sprinkled with bits of light
that bounce off the puddled street below dimly radiatiant lamps.

The only movement-
a few leaves that remain,
flutter from the tiniest of breezes.

No car,
no pedestrian,
not even an animal breaks the stillness,
breaks the lonely sensation of the view before me.

I turn,
walk away again, for the fifth time this evening,
wondering where you could be, how you could be
so far from me.

One end of the room, then the other,
seeing that chair again, for the first time,
since the last time,
empty,
overstuffed,
but empty.

Back again to the window
peeling away the foreground,
straining to see,
stretching my vision to the horizon,
still nothing,
nothing more than my wanton expression staring back at me,
from this side of the glass.

Quickly, I look away
unbearable to see the pathetic being staring back at me,
with tear-stained cheeks, vacant gaze
between mascara-striped lids.

Surely I must decide
to cease my waiting, my wailing;
to cease my denial
and know, you
are no longer a part of us.

Tomorrow, if you don’t come tonight.

© December 2, 2000

Saxoness

Senior Member

since 1999-07-18

Posts 1102
Texas

1 posted 2000-12-02 02:11 PM

How many times have I avoided windows for just this reason? Beautiful and sad write.

"Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone
I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me."

Paula Finn
Member Ascendant

since 2000-06-17

Posts 5546
missouri

2 posted 2000-12-02 02:22 PM

That last line just says it all...all the hope the yearning the desire for another chance...sadly beautiful write

Ignore those who would clip your wings...fly ever upward...even if it means scorched wings

VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

3 posted 2000-12-02 03:07 PM

Thank you Saxoness and Paula! You do my heart good. This poem isn't currently autobiographical, but it certainly could have been MANY times over, 15 to 30 years ago.

I'm glad Sunshine's title inspired me to search these feelings from my history. It can be so healiing. Deep wounds must be healed from the inside out, while they are continually cleansed with soothing ointment.

Seymour Tabin
Member Empyrean

since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

4 posted 2000-12-02 03:14 PM

VAS,
Good writing, good poem.

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2000-12-02 03:18 PM

Very well written...touching many emotions...James

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

6 posted 2000-12-02 04:58 PM

Virginia I found it...yes, soul-searching is good...I'm glad my little muse visited you, too...isn't she a little doll?

Good job!

Karilea
If I whisper, will you listen?...
I would rather be silent and write, than speak loudly and be bound.
KRJ

VAS
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-16

Posts 7450
Oregon

7 posted 2000-12-02 05:59 PM

Me, too! And thank you!!!

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