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Inside Of Me
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Inside Of Me |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California 
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INSIDE OF ME What is this thing that I can’t see? This thing that grows inside of me. I bear the scar, been cut before, But now this thing’s come back for more… …As all my life’s put to the test Of one demon I’ll never best, …As soon they’ll raise their blades, again, To purge me of my mortal sin. While mirrors bring me no surprise, An empty man with vapid eyes, I count my days in full duress Of knowing few who’ll garner less. For what’s Reality avail To those whom Immunity fail? But lack of choice and lack of chance In mirrors with no backward glance. If in time-riven dreams of play Or childhood memories slipped away - If in the barren waste of hope From which I feign the strength to cope - I’ll give no selfish cries of “why”, For all, I know, in time must die… But give my time the best I can For after all, I’m just a man. Yet while they’re deep inside my chest, Let all demons be laid to rest. Let all who know me understand I came to this, not of my hand - But of a choice I would not grieve, For above all, I do “believe”… And despite what the doctors see, There’s life, in love, inside of me. Michael Anderson But dreams of those who dream as I, Aspiringly, are damned and die. EAP |
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Startime Member Ascendant
since 2000-10-03
Posts 5918Canada |
This beautiful poem is proof that the is indeed much love inside of you. Wonderful read here, my friend. Thank you so very much for the read. Love I leave with you my friend whether it be in your life or of yet the essense of your dreams. [URL=http://path2riches.com]http://path2riches.com |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Okay...forgive me while I type a "wow". And secondly, please reassure us that you okay. Finally, this is very moving and poignantly written. Was the "wine" at my poetic feast today. Smiles to you. Incredible, as always. |
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Gemini Senior Member
since 1999-12-15
Posts 1203Wisconsin, USA |
Michael-Why does there have to be so much hurt in life?, yet you express it well. Sometimes it can't be controlled and it's not by our choice. These are the days you take a day at a time and are thankful for simple things in life, the smile or hug of a child can take away some of the hurt. Here's wishing you happiness and hugs. Take care, my friend. |
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bestgirl911 Senior Member
since 2000-10-04
Posts 551Clio, MI , United We Stand |
Michael... Lovely read and flows beautifully. Hope all is well, and be sure to enjoy those simple things. Best |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
What is this thing that I can’t see? This thing that grows inside of me. I bear the scar, been cut before, But now this thing’s come back for more… …As all my life’s put to the test Of one demon I’ll never best, …As soon they’ll raise their blades, again, To purge me of my mortal sin. While mirrors bring me no surprise, An empty man with vapid eyes, I count my days in full duress Of knowing few who’ll garner less. For what’s Reality avail To those whom Immunity fail? But lack of choice and lack of chance In mirrors with no backward glance. ================ ’ll give no selfish cries of “why”, For all, I know, in time must die… But give my time the best I can For after all, I’m just a man. Yet while they’re deep inside my chest, Let all demons be laid to rest. Let all who know me understand I came to this, not of my hand - But of a choice I would not grieve, For above all, I do “believe”… And despite what the doctors see, There’s life, in love, inside of me. =================== God you break my heart when you write like this ... the depth of which you bleed poetically still amazes and awes me..even after all this time ... and always touches and cuts deep. M, you already know how I feel about the emotions of this poem...and why... "Let all who know me understand I came to this, not of my hand - But of a choice I would not grieve, For above all, I do “believe”… And despite what the doctors see, There’s life, in love, inside of me." I do know and I do believe...I have seen your light in your words, in your poetry. I dont doubt you for a second ... and the best part of all is the line above where you say you believe in you. YOU are a gift...so is your poetry. take care of you, jm Sprayed across my heart and hers Danced butterflies in the wild This angel, this woman , who loves me with the innocence of a child. ~DeVante~ |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
Startime, Nice to meet you. Thank you very much for the compliment. serenity, Well, I'd like to reassure you all is o.k. but I can't at this point. A mass of some sort has developed in my chest. I will be having yet another surgery come Monday to remove it. What it is / what exactly has caused it remains to be seen. Will keep you all posted. Gemini, There is MUCH hurt to life, indeed. Sometimes it seems more so fore some than others too - but it's the hurt that makes you appreciate all those little things so much more in the end I think. There is much more to be thankful for than the hurt could ever erase, at least in my case.  Thank you.bestgirl, All is as well as can be expected. At least I don't have to go through any of this alone... that would truly be devistating to me. Janet, You are a true friend. You are one who helped me find the light in my own poetry even when I didn't always want to see it. Thank you, dear. ...and thank you all for the kind replies. Michael |
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Tony Abbot Member
since 2000-11-18
Posts 209North Wales,UK |
The obviously genuine suffering in this poem makes it very moving.I hope things work out for you.All the best. Tony. 'Humankind cannot bear too much reality' T.S.Eliot |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Michael, PLEASE let us know what's going on.. as always your writing is superb. I'm glad to read you here again.  |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
~Hands Of Healing~ I wish for hands of healing ... for an empowered, gentle touch. So that I might lay my hands on you, so that I might be your crutch. I wish for understanding eyes ... for vision to see on thru. So that I might help you to see,so that thru my eyes you might finally see the light that shines in you. I wish for a forgiving heart ... for the gift of unconditional love so true. So that I might share this gift so rare, so that love's venial touch would then embrace you. I wish for an enchanted poets pen ... for which to write perfect rhyme and verse. So that I might find the words to say, so that I might write the lines that would free you of this curse. All these things I hope and pray for ... all these things I ask for on bended knee. So that I might spare you all this pain, so that I might find the way to set your heart free. Janet Marie Michael, I am so sorry your having to go thru this again. please do keep us updated, and you already know we hold you in our thoughts and prayers. Quiet comfort my friend, much love to you both. take care of each other (I know you will) more quiet comfort  me Sprayed across my heart and hers Danced butterflies in the wild This angel, this woman , who loves me with the innocence of a child. ~DeVante~ |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
"For after all, I’m just a man." This line is my favorite line because if you change the last word to woman it would be describing my feelings perfectly. What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I have read in my life. Walt Whitman |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Michael...(and Linda)...I am so sorry to hear this...my prayers are with both of you. Hugs, and candles lit. Please, let us know. My love and hopes are with you. |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
I'll keep you in my prayers, Michael. Excellent writing. It's so good to see you here again. Denise |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
Michael I'm sorry to hear this. You know I'll have you in my prayers buddy. May God reign in your life, and the demons be gone, and all be well. God bless you, keep us updated! <*\\\>< I know not what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future. I don't question YOUR existance - GOD |
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Nan
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
Michael... The poem is great, of course - Let's find some time to talk before the weekend's over, all righty my friend??? You're not alone by a long shot... |
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Elizabeth
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Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
Michael, you will be in my prayers. Hope everything goes well with your surgery. Great read...loved the last lines. There's always more to us than our physical being. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Michael--I believe that the things that happen to us in life are lessons...especially the difficult ones...your strength of spirit is evident in your words...many blessings to you during this difficult time. |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Michael, Powerful words of hope and affirmation in this one. I hope all goes well with your surgery. Wonderful writing. Lone Wolf Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Michael~ I lift your name to Him in prayer for blessings and care. *Hugs* ~*Marge*~ |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Sending good thoughts your way, Michael.. this is excellent writing... |
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Alwye
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Member Elite
since 1999-06-16
Posts 3850In the space between moments |
Oh Michael...I don't even know what to say. You've blessed me with your friendship and with your guidance when I've needed it, you write phenomenal poetry, and you're a wondrous person. This is poignant and sad my friend...I'll keep you in my heart and in my prayers. I hope that all goes well. *Krista Knutson* "One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar." Helen Keller |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Michael, if I clap my hands, and say I believe will I then see the love too? Karilea If I whisper, will you listen?... I would rather be silent and write, than speak loudly and be bound. KRJ |
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Kit McCallum
Administrator
Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Michael ... this is so poetically beautiful and so understandably sad. My prayers and thoughts are with you and Linda in this difficult time, take care ... Best wishes, /Kit |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Michael* I've been in "awe" of your writing since the very first days I came to passions and this poem is the reason why...you speak to my heart and you pour out yours...all I can say Michael is that I understand...and tell you that yes my friend...you DO deserve Love and Life...and you'll be in my prayers. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched ---- they must be felt with the heart~ *??* |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
Big HUSG sweetheart....hang in there and you know scars are added bits of personality...soul maps of who we are, where we've been, where we're going and the added treasure of who we'll be when we get there, others just have to follow the route... HUSG [This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 11-30-2000).] |
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Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
I just want to say thank you to each and every one of you for the overwhelming responce... and for all your prayers. Please forgive me for not listing each of you individually. I do have faith that all will be fine after the surgery Monday. I have too much waiting for me at home in the forms of Linda and Mikey to believe otherwise. Again, thank you all. Michael [This message has been edited by Michael (edited 12-01-2000).] |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
This moved me... Excellent writing from a loving heart... You are in my prayers... Coco |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
... because today your on our minds... and in our prayers. We love you Michael. < !signature--> I looked into the sky for my anthem The words and music came through But words and music can never touch the beauty that I've seen Looking into you [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 12-04-2000).] |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Michael I'm praying for you today and for whenever you need it. Kethry Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other's eyes for an instant - Thoreau |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
you are in my prayers and thoughts...and I believe there is a lot of love in you, excellent penned. take care ((warm hugs)) Charisma |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
For above all, I do “believe”… And despite what the doctors see, There’s life, in love, inside of me. You sure do, and did, and do, and glory be! Thanks to JM for directing me to this unbelievably heartfelt poem. It seems that a prayer was answered.  |
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