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dear diary(a journal for today) |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore 
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Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall Humpty Dumpty had a great fall like him, i am weak and powerless to prevent my fall And try as they might, all the king's horses and men couldnt put Humpty Dumpty back together again i wonder though if humpty dumpty wanted to be whole again i know i dont funny how a click of the mouse hurls you into such bottomless dispair funny how your mediocre grades remind you of what you are worth funny how people criticise the line "i feel like dying" as drivel when its truly how you feel funny how i manage to smile, sparkling eyes and not-so-white teeth and all, when im having a diarrhoea of tears inside i say life is like scooping icecream no matter how earnestly you try to make your scoops round, your superior will just nag and your scoops just stay crooked im dying please dont dismiss my words for saying so |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Honey, I am so sorry you are feeling like this......I don't know what to say........I used to think my grades reflected who I was.....that would have made me a complete failure (no kidding) the grade does NOT reflect who you are......that is just not right........there is so much more to who you are.......don't let this keep you down.....all you can do is your very best and that is all anyone should ask of you.....our school system is a mess, that's why I home school my kids.......don't let them put you into their pre-set catagories....know you are better than that!!!  -SEA |
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Dennis L. White Senior Member
since 2000-02-17
Posts 1463Michigan, U.S.A. |
Kaile, Your friends are hurting with you, when you hurt, you are not alone. We will not dismiss your feelings as unimportant or trivial. We have all been dissappointed at various times in our lives and some times we choose to suffer alone. We also reach out to others for help and consolation. My hope for you is that you are able to talk to a trusted friend near or far, and work through the issues that trouble you that you may find peace and resolution. My mailbox is always open! Dennis |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
kaile, my friend. . . you are indeed special, you are who you are. . . grades don't describe you. . . your words, and your heart. . . that is who you are. . . and we know it. . . and we're here for you. . . writing helps, and this is no exception. . . ----------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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kcsgrandma Senior Member
since 2000-09-24
Posts 1522Presque Isle, ME |
Kaile - I am so sorry that you are unhappy with your grades! I know how much self-esteem can be bound up in things like that. I think sometimes people dismiss real feelings because they don't know how to make things better, so they just try to believe that it's not so bad. Nevertheless, I find when I am down about something like this, it helps to examine the negative thoughts for truth. There is almost always some falsehood in those thoughts that pull you down. As already pointed out here, for instance, mediocre grades do not make you a worthless person. When you can see the lies you are feeding yourself, then you can re-frame the thoughts. Not "I'm worthless because my grades weren't good enough", but "I did not do as well as I wanted to. What can I do to make it better next time?" There can be all sorts of answers to that question, and only you can choose the best one. Hope it's better for you soon. hugs To love another person is to see the face of God. - Les Miserables Marilyn |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
firstly, thanx for your concern and yup, im feeling better today..nothing like a good night's sleep to make me feel better  i agree and i know that grades do not make a person but i still fall to this fallacy..how can i not think this way when I AM a student, and my progress during the past year is summed up within those grades... i too realise the importance of re-framing, kcsgrandma...and in all fairness, i didnt do THAT bad, i just didnt do well enough...but again, all my peers are scoring As and my B average pale so much in comparsion..i guess we shouldnt compare ourselves to others but how not to?...sigh  i realise though that its no use dwelling on the past and that in order to make amends, i will just do better the next semester... thanx for listening and for your warm words...thanx for letting me vent my anger...in fact, this poem came while i was working yesterday and this web of darkness just closed in upon me..and i felt so lost and yet i had to deal with customers, smiles and all... |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
Extremely well woven of those times. Just remember, ice cream though mishapen, is just as ever so sweet to the taste. And a rose by any other names would smell just as sweet. If any other part of your life goes as well as your poetry, someone's going to notice that, too! |
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Panne Junior Member
since 2001-01-31
Posts 15South TX, USA |
Hi Kai Le, Surprise! Told you I'd stop by soon. Just want to say I liked this and the ending was courageous and heartfelt. I would uncap all the caps to emphasis the despair of this piece and add punctuation and a few more line breaks to do the same. Look forward to seeing your rewrites. Smiles, Panne |
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